𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐀𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲 | 𝐒.𝐌

Chapter 8

Here is a list of the songs I listen to while writing: Nick Jonas - Chains, John Newman - Love me again, Jay Sean - Down, Justin Bieber - Sorry, Shawn Mendes - Roses, Shawn Mendes - Love me or leave me, Shawn Mendes - Satisfied, Dj Babs - Tout est bon, Twin N Twice - COUCOU, Duncan Laurence - Arcade, Charlie Puth - Attention, Trap Queen Remix Kizomba by Dj Anilson, Marshmello ft. Khalid - Silence.

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Shawn closes the door behind him and looks at me with a dark twinkle in his eyes, damn he's hot. I turn around, pulling the duvet almost over my head. Shawn uses the screen of his phone to find the mattress, and when he lays down, a sigh escapes his mouth.

'Are you ok?' Shawn asks when he hears me sob.

'No.' I say as I start to cry.

'What's wrong?' He asks as he sits up.

'I'm afraid...' I sigh. 'I'm afraid of developing feelings for you. I'm afraid how my family feels comfortable with you like you've always been family. I'm afraid to let my walls down and I'm terrified of your questions.' I sob.

'Why are you terrified of my questions?' Is the only thing he asks after my breakdown.

'The way you ask them, it's like you're looking into my soul.' I say, still crying.

He sits down on the side of my bed. I want to touch him, hug him, kiss him, even my attraction to him scares me.

'Can I lay next to you?' He asks.

'Yes.' I sob again.

'I don't want to scare you with my questions. I think you're really interesting and I just want to get to know you better. I know I ask the most random questions, but I like your reactions and your voice...' He is silent for a minute.

I turn to him, putting my hand on his face. He looks at me, eyes still dark from the lack of light in my bedroom.

'I've never found someone this interesting, this fast. In my whole life, I haven't liked anyone, really.' I say wiping my tears away. 'And you can keep asking questions, I kind of like them.' He laughs.

'I was going to keep asking them anyway.' He says with a big smile.

'I've made you cry already, we don't even know each other that long.' He smiles after a couple of minutes of silence.

'It's my period.' I laugh.

'Come here.' He says, opening his arms.

'What is with you and touching?' I ask, moving closer to his body.

'I like touching you.' He winks.

I ignore his second lame joke today. I decide to let my guards down a little by letting him hold me until I fall asleep. I turn a couple of times before I find a comfortable spot on his hard chest. I doubt a little before putting my hand onto his stomach, feeling his abs through the t-shirt. I hear his heartbeat, it beats fast. He puts his hand on my hand, while his other hand softly touches my back.

'Why is your heart beating so fast?' I whisper.

'Do you want the truth?' He asks.

'Yes.' I say.

'You turn me on.' He says running his finger down my spine.

'Don't I always.' I say with a smile, trying to ignore the feeling between my legs.

Shawn laughs, a little too loud and I'm afraid he'll wake my family, so I put my hand on his mouth to shut him up.

I look at my alarm clock on my nightstand, it's one o'clock in the morning. I'm actually enjoying my time with Shawn right now.