𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐀𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲 | 𝐒.𝐌

Chapter 43

A few minutes pass in silence.

'Where did you learn that?' Shawn asks with an angry tone.

I was waiting for this bomb to drop, but deep down I hoped he wouldn't mention it and just be grateful...

I don't fucking ask him where he learned everything he does to me and I think I don't even want to know. Like that weirdly shaped egg, I know for sure, that with me wasn't his first time experimenting with it.

'I told you that other day in the car about my past.' I tell him after a couple of seconds.

'You did what you just did to me to other guys too?'

'Well... yeah... that's how I learned it...' I feel him looking at me, but I'm afraid to look into his eyes.

Shawn lets go of my hand and turns around, with his back to me. Is he fucking serious right now?! He told me that he will always be jealous, but please, tell me what the fuck there is to be jealous about!

I throw the sheets off me and stand up grabbing my phone off the mattress.

'You are such a fucking hypocrite!' I whisper in his direction before walking away.

His body should be filled with oxytocin and vasopressin hormones right now, not how-do-I-chase-my-girlfriend-away-by-being-a-dick hormones.

I walk through the small curtains and walk past the eating space to the big gate in my pyjamas. I push them open and walk through the sand that's still warm, even in the middle of the night. I try to walk as angry as I am, but my feet keep sinking into the soft sand.

There is a big hill of sand next to the camp and I decide to walk to it. I try to climb onto it but my grip keeps slipping. I put my phone in my bra and continue climbing even while it feels impossible.

The stars in the sky are shining so bright that I don't even need the flashlight of my phone to see something.

I stop what feels like hours later with climbing and turn around. 

My jaw drops. 

All this time it felt like I was climbing and not getting any higher but now... it's like I can see the whole desert. Like a queen watching over her precious land, with brightest stars lighting it.

I wish Shawn was here to see this... No, fuck Shawn. He can go fuck himself because I'm not sucking his fucking dick anymore if it starts so much fucking drama. Fuck!

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The next morning I wake up from the dimmed sun shining in my face. I fell asleep on the hill of sand and to be honest I slept pretty great.

I look at the beautiful sunrise and slowly start walking down the hill to the toilets outside the camp. Damn it! There is sand everywhere, in my hair, in my clothes, in my ears. Ugh. I guess that's the price you pay for sleeping outside.

'Good morning, Liz.' I hear Niya say while she's smoking a cigarette.

'Morning.' I am grumpy as fuck.

I try to remove as much sand off my clothes as I can before entering the toilet stall.

When I'm done I walk through the gates of the camp to our tent. Shawn is folding the sheets and I open the tent, grabbing clean clothes.

'Good morning, babe.' He says.

'Oh, fuck off.' I say before walking away again.

I take my shower in peace and put on clean clothes before sitting down on a bench next to Niya outside the camp. I hate the smoke of cigarettes, but I would rather sit here for a bit than go back inside and face Shawn after he spent a sand-free night on a mattress.