𝐇𝐢𝐬 𝐀𝐭𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐞𝐲 | 𝐒.𝐌

Chapter 45

Adriana crosses her arms in front of her chest and looks at me with an angry glare. I straighten my jacket and sit down next to her on the bed.

'Where did it go wrong between us?' I sigh and run my fingers through my hair.

'When you became popular...' Adriana says.

When I became popular? I expected her to say when mum died, or when she stole my fucking earrings. What does me becoming popular in high school have to do with her?

'What do you mean?!' My voice sounds high when I turn to look at her.

'You were doing god knows what with all the guys in school! You were getting into fights! You weren't the sister you always see in the movies!' She yells.

'No one is the sister you always see in movies! Movies aren't real!' I yell back.

'You know what I mean! I wanted a sister who would show me how to use makeup, who would be there when I tried smoking for the first time, who would rat me out to our parents if you saw me kissing with a guy, but you weren't any of those!' Adriana stands up before she continues yelling at me. 

'And mum and dad were always busy taking care of your shit! Of your problems! I didn't even get the possibility to fuck up because you were already doing it all the goddamn time!' Tears start to roll down her cheeks.

I look at her. I never thought about it in that way, but she is right. I wasn't a good sister to her, let alone the right example.

'And the worst thing of all is that you have the best relationship with Lucifer! You would do anything for him and he would do anything for you. He might not have noticed it, but when you got mad at me and we stopped talking, he chose your side.' She points at me, still crying. 

'He always chooses your side, and I'm done with that! Mum is dead! Dad is old! And my siblings don't give a fuck about me!'

'We have neighbours! Keep it down!' I hear my dad yell from the living room.

'I do care about you, Adriana. I really do.' I look at her, not knowing what to say.

I can't apologize for what Lucifer does, but she's right again. We do have a different relationship and we are closer than Lucifer and Adriana. 

I never looked at it from her point of view, I never cared enough to look at it from her point of view. And yeah, I never was a good sister, but why did she have to mess our relationship up if there wasn't a strong relationship to begin with in the first place?

'You're right...' I stand up. 'I have been a terrible sister to you, and yes, maybe Lucifer chose my side without knowing, but you're my sister and you'll always be my sister.' I walk closer to her.

'Just tell me why you started becoming a bitch too. You are not like me or dad. We ignore our emotions and just keep living, ruining relationships along the way. You're sweet, you show your emotions, you tell people what's on your mind... you take after mum.' I grab her hand.

'I wanted you to notice me. I wanted dad to notice me, to spend time with me, hugging me like he used to hug you when you were crying in your room after a fight...' 

She looks down at her feet with tears in her eyes. 

'But I guess it all changed after mum died...'

Yeah, it did change. When mum was gone, dad shut down. He changed as if his heart had turned into ice. I heard him crying in his room late at night and when I walked in to comfort him he acted like nothing was going on. Like he never cried and I was just imagining it.