I Will Find My Own Sky

My Homeboys

I am standing here , crying like an idiot.
I know you thinking, but you're man
Don't you worry, I am hiding at this dark corner
Nobody can see my toes curl and big tears drop
Of course we do have tears stupid
What did you expect, whiskey running down
They're are big fat teardrops
I fucking loved Him.
He was my Homeboys
So let me cry , a little, maybe a lot

This time you'll see my tears
I can't hide them
They won't flow inside my stomach
Let me wet your favorite blouse just like you do my shirts sometimes,
Just hold me
Don't shower me with kisses
It's not like I don't want to feel your long endless legs around my waist
God, I do Soo bad that my whole body is on fire.
I just don't want to forget that Nigga with one night of dancing with passion.
He deserves better
I want to feel the pain pierce through me.
Let sadness set my soul on fire
I do not want to forget him
Let me cry for him.

Then pour me three shots of tequila
One is for him stealing my woman,
And loving him more than I did
Of course I knew there were sparks
When I introduced them and he smiled like an idiot.

The second one is for our memories
The times we joked who would die first..
He would chuckle,
"You're the good one Johnny ,
The good ones always go first."
Guess he was right
Cause I am not even close to an Angel
I hope he went where the good ones go.

The third one,
Is for those words that were unsaid,
Man , don't wear the red jersey Angel Gabriel might mistake you for a con artist
Sorry I lied, you really do look like a con artist in it.
When you introduce yourself don't forget your charming smile,
The Angels will love you right away .
And am scared ,
What if this pain in my chest doesn't go away,
And I love you , silly
A little.