Lockout: A Transformers Story

Chapter 24: So... Maybe I'm Not Okay

{Each chapter has a meaning. Make sure you keep up. I'm excited for this chapter, I feel like it was well needed. Enjoy! <3 Locky}

Chemicals, musty, smoky, bitter; Shockwave's scientific studies engulfed his room in ways that could be addicting. I was only stable for a few minutes, standing in silence of my beating spark. Nightblaze didn't know when to shut himself up when it was good for him.

The words of Nightblaze took me back to that night. Energon coating the floors, I could remember the scent of gore that filled the room. When Midnight's power combined with my desire for revenge, remorse for my father's death, Nightkiller was met with a terrifying fate. His pumpkin orange optics had revealed his fear, fear I had not seen before. My worry was that he could be part of the great evil I would face. Unicron was probably included in that.

I was very aware that I had deep concerns and troubles in my future. There were things that would remind me that I was never going to have an easy life.

"I came back for you, Lockout." It was that tone... that horrible, evil tone. Nightkiller.

Light engulfed my back, I had been mumbling to myself in utter panic, words spoken in old cybertronian. The mech, whom had entered not too long ago, wrapped his arms around my waist, my tense body slowly easing with comfort. "Lockout?" He breathed at my neck. "Are you alright?"

The mech's touch was enough, enough to help me forget. His larger frame reminded me of safety.

"Not necessarily, but I'll be alright." I turned to face him, he was silent and listened. That's all a woman could really ask for, a man who would listen and care for her.

"I'll be waiting when you tell me you're ready." I took him into a passionate, gentle embrace, my helm at his chest, optics closed. The mech's hand brushed a few loose strands of hair from my face. He knew I was overwhelmed.

"I love you, Shockwave. I really, truly do. You do so much that I shouldn't ask for..." I took a breath.

"I know your mind can be torture. I know you're going through a hard time right now. I'm here, I always will be."

I pulled him toward the bed, laying against his side, resting now as I needed. "Thank you..."

"You don't need to thank me, this is my job."

"This reminds me of the first real night I had you in my arms." The one memory that was good in my mind. I had been nervous, but shockwave had reminded me there was nothing to worry about. I was never alone.

"I miss those nights."

"I just want these moments to last..."

"I know."

I sat up in the bed for a moment, the mech joining me as I pondered an idea. "Shockwave-" was it silly? Why would I want to ask...

"Yes?"

"Can we do that again? Maybe even just somewhere else." I breathed. "I want to spend time with you, I want to get to know you more than I do."

The mech pulled me into his lap, crimson orb lightening. "I'm alright with that."

{it's a little shorter... I know. I was going to do a different turn beforehand but i ended up not liking what I was going to write so I changed it to just a short chapter. Hope you guys enjoyed it!}