Lockout: A Transformers Story

Locked out of Love: Prime's POV

{Hey guys, this chapter takes place after chapter 28 and before 29. To set the scene, Optimus came back to base and immediately locked himself in his room to have time to vent to himself, to calm down. He is deeply in love with Lockout, Megatron's sister, if you guys didn't catch that, and he is frustrated that he can't be with her. I hope you guys enjoy this little piece, I'm starting the writing for my Survivor book, which is book 2 in the Lockout: A Transformers story series! -Lock💜}

It was dark, cold, same as it always is. Somehow... it felt colder. That night Lockout had taken over my bed was the warmest this room has ever been, and even after it was warm... that warmth was far gone by now. I had locked myself in my quarters for the 3rd time these past few weeks.

Roughly, I sat on the bed, letting out a deep rumble of a groan. Slowly, I let my helm rest in my hands, it was unfair! It was... difficult.

"What does she see in Shockwave?" I snarled, voice low. I just didn't understand and I wouldn't, shockwave was cruel and only seemed to be fascinated with his science. Primus, Lockout had me on my knees for her. He knows I'm in love, I can hardly breathe without her. I can't breathe without her.

I honestly couldn't even think of something Shockwave had truly done for lockout that I might've seen. He can't kiss her, he doesn't have a face! He hasn't saved her in near death experiences, somehow, I have always been there.

It was bad. I was bad. It was dangerous to be in love with her, dangerous to even think about being with her, I should not be in love with her. But she's perfect. She should be mine. I laid back on my bed, taking a handful of the not-so-great blanket. I hated Shockwave. I hated Megatron. I wanted to save her from all the pain, hide her and shield her from everything bad. I wanted to protect her.

It was like this every time I saw Lockout, I would hide in my room, practically break everything, and possibly scream to the allspark. I couldn't let the other Autobots know that their leader was in love with a Decepticon, even the fact that she's Megatron's sister makes it worse. If the war were to end now, they still would be pissed if we were mates.

My sweet Lockout looked so terrified tonight. I... I just want to comfort her, I want to help her feel safe. It hurts me to see her in pain or afraid. My Lockout... The moment she cuddled up to me, I had to hold back. I seemed so... calm, but I was practically crying out. I didn't want the moments with her like that to end. I wanted to taste her lips again, to hold her. I desire her. She was my requirement. My spark ached, yearned for her. I love Lockout.

I finally sat up, stood up, I felt my rage build up. Suddenly, a very dark, frustrated, angry yell slipped past my lips, my fist making a dent in the wall.

What are you doing to me, Lockout?

"End my pain..." I whispered to the wall. "Please... I love you, Lockout..."

There came a knock at the door and I froze. Dammit. I hadn't meant to yell. I didn't want them to know.

Another knock came. I hesitated at the door, I didn't want to open it. Carefully, slowly, I opened the door, surprisingly not met with an Autobot, but a human. Jack.

"Do you need something, Jack?"

"I came to check on you, you've been in there for five hours."

Shit. "Oh. I must've lost track of the time."

Jack shifted a little and then spoke up, "are you okay, Optimus?"

I'm being torn apart. "Yes." That's a lie.

"Can I come in?" I hesitated again, shifting in discomfort. I glanced back at my trashed room and the dents in my wall.

"S-sure..." Sure? That wasn't a very Prime thing.

Jack walked past my feet and proceeded to sit on the floor near my bed. I closed my optics for a moment and took in a deep breath. It's fine. I'm fine. It's good. He doesn't need to know. I probably shouldn't have let him in. He saw it all, the dented wall, the broken things, roughed up sheets. Primus...

"I know heartbreak when I see it, Optimus." He spoke, crossing his arms. "And I can tell you're also jealous, I mean.. you dented a wall."

"Heartbreak?"

"When you fall in love but they reject you."

Oh. "I'm not in love."

He gave me a look.

"O-okay..." I sat down in front of him. "You can't tell anyone, not even the children." Jack nodded. "Promise me, Jack."

"I promise, Optimus."

"It's Lockout..." I breathed out, almost in a whisper. I was terrified. "I'm in love with Megatron's sister." Jack was hesitant, a hand running through his hair.

"Holy shit."