Summer to Forget ✔️

14

I stiffed from my position as I heard him called me by that endearment. I did not see it coming though. And it's been years since I last heard someone used called me that. Nakakapanibago at nakakamiss rin na may tumawag sa akin ng ganoon.

Hindi ko rin mapigilan na hindi makaramdam ng pagkabahala sapagkat sa huling taong tumawa sa akin ng ganoon ay iniwan lang rin ako.

But I cannot help to smile like an idiot. I can't help but to like him more.

Umiwas ako nang tingin sa kanila at tumikhim para pakalmahin ang sarili. Pinaypayan rin ang sarili dahil pakirmdam ako namumula pa rin ako sa kilig na inabot ko.

Who would have thought that this day would come? I never sa myself being in this situation as I am not close to other person except for Lau, specially with boys.

"We're dating."

I immediately face Lau when I heard her saying the news. My mouth hung open with her sudden news. I was actually surprise because all this time, I thought it was Rawl whom she likes. We even talk about it the last day we met each other. I don't know. I have hundreds of questions but all I can do is to congratulate them both.

"Oh! Congratulations!" I told them and give them the fakest smile that I ever had.

Then I remember, the day that Lau and I met, I asked Rawl about Lau. I know that they've been contacting each other for almost a year now. He even admitted that he already likes her and this happens. I was only busy on my own and didn't bother to ask my friend on how she is feeling this days.

I felt betrayed and dissapointed pero binalewala ko na lang iyon. I should be happy for them, especially for Namiel because I knew his intention is clear and safe.

I can't help but to scold myself for being unfair.

Thoughts and misconceptions endlessly running to my mind.

When Namiel excused himself to talk to Czesar. I grab the chance to talk to Lau. While I was saying sorry to her, I can't hep but to cry. Wala nang ibang lumalabas na salita sa bibig ko kung hindi ang pasensya na. We hug each other until I stopped crying like a baby.

"You know. It's okay. I was just dissapointed at first when you can't even send a simple 'good mornings' and 'good nights' until I realized that you are not that kind of a person as I want you to be a clingy friend to me, I also want you to do it because I think you like it, but you are not used to it so it's actually fine. We both have our lives. Hindi naman diyan nakasasalay ang pagkakaibigan natin dahil alam nating pareho sa ating sarili kung gaano natin kamahal ang isa't isa." she says as she continues comforting me. I gave her a hug again and even kissed on her cheeks.

I admit, I am never that kind of friend who shows affection but I kept it myself as I find it cliche and not my thing to show off.

"Done with our dramas. I want you to tell me about your relationship with Namiel. All along I thought it was Rawl." tanong ko sa kaniya at sinuklian niya ako ng isang ngiti.

I choose to believe that it was not fake. I chose to believe that she was fine all these times.

"It just happen. No questions. I just want peace. I only found myself loving him and seeking for his love. I knew this sound unsual to us but this literally what happened, Tammi."

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"Happy Birthday Laureen Faith!" I greeted her as I saw her when I came on the venue.

Sinadya ko talagang pumunta ng mas maaga dahil alam ko na magiging busy ito mamaya sa pag-aasikaso ng kaniyang mga bisita. It is still three in the afternoon while the program will start in five.