Summer to Forget ✔️

18

"W-why is my mom here?" I faced at Czesar and asked him.

"Mom-what?!"

"That wife that you're telling about your dad! That's my mom!" I yelled at him before I could feel someone grab my arm away from those people.

I was crying the whole time until we arrived home. I didn't spoke a word at Rawl not even thanks. I ran to my room quickly and burst out. I cried so hard until I felt tired and decided to sleep.

The next day, I woke up feeling sick with a puffy eyes. I looked like a hundred times haggard. Good thing it's already vacation. Ayaw ko pa namang pumasok na namamaga ang mata, sana nga lang rin walang nangyaring kaguluhan kagabi, sana walang ibang nakarinig sa usapan. It would be a bad news.

I didn't bother to open my phone and directed go to shower. I need a long hot shower. Good thing that I almost had a kitchen in my room that I have my own heater here so I could make my own coffee and have biscuits on my mini refrigerator. I checked my door and double locked it, I don't want to face nor talk someone right now or until the next days. I think I could live here 'til next week, hopefully near a month.

Pagkatapos kong magmuni muni ay doon ko pa naisipang ideactivate ang aking mga social media accounts. Hindi na ako nag-abala pa na tingnan kung sino iyong mga nag message sa akin. Chat heads kept on popping so I left with no choice but to uninstall my messenger. Then on my instagram, I scrolled for a while before deciding to deactivate my account.

I can't actually feel the boring atmosphere because I feel like I have a lot of task to do instead of feeling alone because I hate it when I am being unproductive. I don't know know what's going on outside because I closed all the doors here in my room including my windows. I can't even let a sunlight inside my room that is why I felt guilty for my plants. Nadadamay ko pa sila sa kadramahan ko, ewan ko ba. Siguro kailangan ko nalang rin ng quality time para sa sarili ko. Regalo ko nalang siguro sa graduation ko.

After updating my lastest on going story, I checked my YouTube account and found out that I already have a hundred of subscribers and I saw a lot of message for me. I was guilty to deactivate my social media accounts in case they have something to post for me online. I also wanted to thank them too. So I ordered the silver play button online and shoot for a vlog instead, hoping that it won't take that long because I feel so grateful despite on what's happening in my life these days.

I fell asleep again when I can't think of another activity to do and I woke up when I heard my door slammed. I felt my head spinning for a second. I blinked and stare at my father, couldn't register what should I do. I compose my bed after I composed myself. Despite of still awake I manage to stand and sat my on study table, silently. I can sense him looking at me but it didn't bother me even a bit and picked my phone to message Czesar to meet me at our favorite coffee shop after an hour.

"Leave that boy alone."

"You have must forget that you are not in your office. I am not your companion neither your worker."

"Yes coz you are my child."

"You wish." it was nearly a whisper.

"Leave him or leave us. I don't want to keep a disgrace here in my house."

"This house is mom and your property, not just yours old man."

"Tamila!" he shouted angrily.

"Yes?" I answered sarcastically.

"Don't mention your mom in front of me-"

"Why? Because you haven't move on yet and you feel like a loser when she is already happy with her new husband? Oh, does it hurt? Ikaw naman iyong naunang nangati a-"