Fate

Falling For Him

It's been a month since iv been back at hogwarts and a month since I found out Harry is the reason my mother died.
It's been really difficult to deal with having to see him everyday and pretend I'm his friend just so I don't blow my cover, I hate it!
Draco has been helping me a lot recently we would dissappear into the room of requirements together and just talk for hours, it seems he needed someone to talk to as well.

It was the end of the day and I went off to the room of requirements again with draco, he was struggling with the patrnous charm and needed my help.
He shown me how he did it, which was the wrong way, I knew this as I always do this charm, I love my patrnous, I have a Irish wolfhound. it's beautiful.
I held his hand behind him as I shown him what to do and then told him to think of his happiest memory, it took a few times but he finally was able to do it,he had the most gorgeous dragon, it was magnificent. I gazed at its sight as i turned to him and asked,
"What did you think about draco?"
He waited a few moments and looked into my eyes, he daring grey eyes glistened, I was mesmorised. I started to feel something I had never felt before.
"You"
He spoke softly
"your the only one who has made me truly happy"
I didn't know what to say..
He slowly looked down on me and stepped closer, our heads not even a cm apart, lips slightly grazing I could see the lust in his eyes the hunger as if he was a lion and I was his prey but then I remembered my father's words. I had to go, I had to leave I stepped back quickly.
"I'm sorry" I whispered as I turned and ran from the room into the corridor and up into my common room, I didn't stop until I reached my bed. Heart pounding I couldn't fall for anyone especially not draco! I have a mission to complete I cannot have any interference.

The next morning I was walking down the corridor with hermonie and Ron, we heard a massive commotion going on as we ran down the last thing we heard
"Sectumsempra"
Then a body hit the ground.
I pushed threw the crowd as I went over to see who it was.. Draco
"Noooo!" I screamed as I ran over to him, he was bleeding out, Harry's face was guilt ridden but that isn't enough
Tears streaming down my face as people started to surround us.
"Why would you do that! It's gonna kill him" I screamed,
"stay with me draco please don't leave me" I was holding him close to my body, my clothes covered in blood as I stroked his platinum hair which now had hints of red.
"I'm sorry" draco spoke giving half a smile as his eyes closed.
Teachers rushed to my side as my screams could be heard from miles around.
Snape quickly came over saying a spell I had never heard before as hermonie tried to pull me away.
"leave me alone" I screeched as I held onto him with all my strength
"please don't leave me, please I need you"
As they carried him away to get to the hospital wing I sat there drenched in blood and tears..
I had only knew him for a couple of months but it felt like it had been forever, I know it wasn't love but he wasn't just a friend either, I stormed up to Harry shooting spells, I couldn't contain myself first he kills my mother then he tries to kill draco.

He quickly blocks them but one got in, it blew him into a wall, the rocks started crumbling down onto him as the teachers tried to disarm me they failed. I had my father's anger, once I start I couldn't stop I shot fire balls at him constantly, determined to kill. the last thing I remembered was shouting 'crucio' at him before my mind blanked from the anger.

I woke up in dumbledores office on his couch they must of brought me here. Then it all came flooding back.
I went to get up as I heard a voice behind me.
"Stay Lucy, draco is okay you can visit him in a moment but I must speak to you, what you did was incredible stupid, I understand what he did was unruly and unacceptable but you used one of the three forbidden curses! Infront of hundreds of students and teachers! You could be excluded do you understand! "
I knew It was dumbledore.
" exclude me I don't care! He got what was coming, before I leave I'm seeing draco I have to know he is alright."
"i know you are fond of the boy Lucy but you know your father told me to keep use away."
"Tell my father he can stuff one, I'll do as I please I can't help who I care about I don't understand why he gets to control my life"
As I spoke a person came from the shadows.
"If you would of stayed away that wouldn't of happened."
"father?"
Dumbledore spoke up before anything else was said.
"Tom, I managed to keep Lucy here at hogwarts I had to clear the mind of over 200 hundred students including her own friends and Harry potter and seven teachers! She must be punished, they will remember everything up to the crucio curse, no one will remember, other then the people stood in this room."

"I agree."
My heart was pounding, what was he going to do.
"crucio"
I couldn't react quick enough as the pain surged threw me, my insides were being boiled from within the pain was unbarebale as I screamed and shouted and begged for It to stop. I looked up and saw My father crying, dumbledore has turned the other way. I knew I deserved it but it had been a long time.
After what felt like hours the pain finally stopped, I could breathe again I went to the couch and fell into a deep sleep waking up at night fall, no one was around my body was weak I could barely stand but I knew I had to go to him.
I stumbled threw the halls no one was around, I slipped into the common room and stripped myself of the bloody clothes putting on a plain top and leggings I ran down to the hospital ward. Breathless, I couldn't stop until I got to him.
I went to his bed and sat by his side clinging onto his hand as if he would disappear if I let go.
I moved his hair out of his face and quickly kissed his cheek.
"Please, please be okay."
His eyes slowly opened up, tears streaming down his face.

It was as if someone took over my body, my lips pressed onto his moving in sync, relief and happiness starting rushing threw My body.

"I didn't realise I meant that much to you Baker. I heard you, you know, I was still concious as they brought me here, I could hear your screams."
I looked at him, I remember the pain I felt I thought he was going to die.
"I couldn't lose you draco you mean to much to me."
We sat in an comfortable silence after that, as I held his hand he drifted back to sleep, peaceful I thought.
I won't let him get that close to hurting the people I care about ever again.
This was just the start.