Love adventure

Back at it.

I don't talk to Jack because I don't have his number. So I had to deal with the memory of what happened yesterday. I woke up and went for my usual Sunday jog. No I didn't do it to lose weight. I am okay with how chubby I might feel. I did it to let my mind free. As I was resting in the same spot I always do I see Toby again. I was expecting to see Jack running to get him but it was Alisa. I was a bit shocked that she was with Toby but that's her boyfriends dog so it made sense.
"Oh hey Roxanne right? Jack made me walk Toby. Having a lazy boyfriend has its perks. This isn't one of them" she laughed and sat down next to me in the shade.
"I bet." I laugh and start telling Toby I missed him from the last time I saw him.

Alisa looked surprised.
"You've met Toby before?" And I nodd still petting Toby.
"Oh. Well Jack told me how you helped him". I look up and become embarrassed knowing she was his girlfriend. I wondered if she felt jealous at all but realized who I am again and there was no way. She continued saying,
"It was nice of you but could you maybe fuck off and say no next time? I don't need girls in the way. Honestly. Especially one like you. I wanted to be nice so you get the point that I'm with him. So stay away and I won't tell Jack we spoke about this". She gets up and walks away with Toby. I was shocked and didn't say anything. I got back home and still couldn't comprehend what happened at the park. Why would she say that? I knew they were together and I would never get in the way. I was offended but mad that someone would tell me who not to talk to. I never took people telling me what to do well.

My family was back and I told my mom everything. It was always nice venting to someone that will be there unconditionally.
"Rox, she's obviously a jealous girl. Poor her. She's probably insecure. Don't think too much of it. If Jack talks to you then you have the right to talk to him as well but don't go begging either. Its your senior year. Don't waste it on a lame guy and his mean girlfriend." I hugged my mom after she said that. She always knew what to say. She was right. I shouldn't waste my year on Jack.

The rest of my vacation consisted of babysitting my siblings and going to the park with family. I wanted to go back to school already. I hated doing nothing.

The morning back to school, I decided to make my makeup look nice. I still dressed boring and casual as always. Nice clothing made me feel uncomfortable, like my body made everything nice look horrible.

I walked into homeroom and I remembered Amy and Sussy where in Year book club so they wouldnt be there. I sat down alone until Jack showed up and sat down next to me without saying anything to his friends.
"Hey Red. Thanks again for helping. I turned it in and waiting for my grade. If I pass I owe you everything!" He smiled. The real smile. The one I liked even more than the fake smiles. I looked up at him,
"No. It was all you that wrote that. Thank yourself. Don't worry, you don't owe me anything. You came up with the ideas and they were pretty awesome. I just corrected grammer." I smiled back.

He paused for a while just looking at me and I couldn't help but blush. He's never looked at me for this long. I think he realized he was staring when he looked away and smiled at the desk for no reason. He must have thought of something. I wanted to be in his mind to know what he thought, of me at least. He looked so beautiful just looking at nothing smiling so genuinely. He then looked at me,
"Alisa told me she saw you with Toby. Do you always go jogging? Maybe me and Toby can join sometime" he smirked.

I frown thinking of what she had told me. I couldn't tell him and start a fight.
"Oh um yeah. I jog every Sunday. And I rather be alone" after saying that, I realized how rude it came out. He looked away and walked to his friends.

I always mess things up with the wrong words but why was he so sensitive to what I had to say. I guess I'm back at it again. Messing shit up.