Love adventure

Not just anyone.

By now I thought of what I did and I didn't care. I was done caring for those who didn't care for me. When my mom said I shouldnt waste my year on Jack, I should have listened. I knew it was the smart thing to do but I didn't listen until now. I walked into homeroom with confidence. I didn't want to see Jack or hear what he had to say, if he even spoke to me. I sat down and had a normal conversation with my friends. I know they heard what happened but I didnt want to talk about it and they understood.

I looked at Jack walk in and sit down. He didn't acknowledge anyone. I felt bad but I had to stop mopping about him. He was a waste of time and I had better things to worry about.

I went to the rest of my classes and it was hell. I couldn't seem to stop thinking of Jack or Alisa and what I did. Its not my fault I felt bad. I had to see them at school with Jack holding her as Alisa tried to cover her bruised face. I didn't know it was that bad. The day ended and I was walking home when I see Jack alone walk behind me. I try and speed up but he speeds up and keeps walking my direction, already passing where his house leads.
"Roxanne! Wait." I hear from Jack. I froze and waited over thinking what could happen.
"Alisa told me what she told you at the park. I'm so sorry I didn't listen. No wonder you did what you did yesterday. Its my fault so don't worry. Alisa had no right to speak to you that way. She's just jealous I guess." He finished and I didn't say anything. Jealous of me? Or jealous of someone getting in the way. Although what he said was relieving, I looked away and kept walking.
"Really Roxanne. I apologize for what I didn't do and you ignore me. Are you ever going to understand that I would never do this for anyone else?! I wouldn't follow someone home while my cars at school just to apologize! You're so fucking unbelievable" he yelled and again I felt bad. I looked at him and walked up to him. He smiled so I instantly smiled back. How could he smile at me after this. He was unbelievable but in the good way. I really liked this boy. Even more now.
"I'm also sorry for what I did to Alisa. I was mad for what she had told me. I didn't want to stop talking to you. I enjoy talking to you. Trust me I really do. But I-i just don't want to-um never mind" I looked down because I didn't want to tell him that I didn't want to fall for him even more. His cocky side would appear and I didn't want to see that.
"Look, Red." He waited for me to look.
"We can still talk. You make me happy. You're a good friend" he said and I was disappointed at the word friend. My eyes filled with tears. I didn't know why. I felt like I wasn't good enough for Jack. I wanted to be his and I wasn't sure why. I barley knew him but I felt like I did. I was confused and upset. I faked a smile and tried to walk away again while trying to dry my eyes.
"Please don't cry Roxanne. I'm with Alisa and I hope you understand. But please don't cry, just don't. You're stronger than that. Don't cry over the school jerk. Remember, you dont fall for just anyone" he said while pulling me back to see his face attempting to smile. I couldn't smile back. I was hurt for this stupid reason. He was right. I had told him I didn't fall for just anyone.
"But you're not just anyone. You're Jack Gilinsky. The boy everyone speaks of in such disappointment. The boy every girl hates but wants. You're the boy that no one really knows. You're not just anyone Jack Gilinsky. You're more than just anyone. I gotta go " This time I walked away and didn't look back. I didn't hear Jack say anything. I was hoping he would but he didn't.

I got home and laid next to my mom. She noticed my red eyes.
"What's wrong Rox? Don't tell me it had to do with that boy." She said and I looked up crying even more.
"It is mom. I fell for him and I don't know why. I feel like I don't know him at all. Why do I like a boy I hardly know. Its not fair!" I cried on her and let myself let everything go.