Love adventure

Fight

Once again I was embarrassed to face Jack but I knew I had to. I had to stop letting my fears get to me. If he was mad then I had to respect that but I had to say my part of things. I had to tell him what his girlfriend said. Whether he believes me or not.

I walked into homeroom the next day and sat down as I waited for Jack. Amy and Sussy were at a yearbook meeting again. The bell rang and it seemed like I was waiting forever for him to show up. I see him walk into class. He doesn't look at anyone and sits down.

He was listening to music and I was afraid to interrupt but I promised myself I would speak to him.
"Jack? Can I talk to you?" I said as I poked him.

He took his earphones off and nodded and waited for me to speak. I took a deep breathe and did what I thought was right.
"I was rude again. I realize that. I didn't mean I didn't want you to join me in my jogs. Its just that-" I was stopped by jacks stiff words
"I'm so over this Roxanne. I don't care. Same excuse as always. So do me the favor and stop talking to me. I get it, you think you're so much better than me because I've dated a lot of girls and you're so fucking innocent. Well I don't care. At least I'm not embarrassed of who I am!"

Everyone looked over at us. I tried to stop my tears as much as I could. I felt stupid. I tried to do what was best but he didn't want to hear it. I walked out of class nearly crying without caring what the teacher had to say.

As much as I wanted to hear Jack following me and apologizing, he wasn't. Reality was bitch. I liked Jack but I was afraid to get attatched and it messed everything up. I wish I could take back the shit I said.

I felt anger when I thought of what Alisa told me. I automatically blamed this on her. She didn't have the right to tell me what she did. I could talk to Jack if I wanted but now he wanted me to leave him alone.

At break I tried to find Alisa. I walked up to her and asked her if we can talk. She nodded.
"Why the hell did you tell me to fuck off from Jack? I have the right and you can't stop me!" I was yelling and I couldn't stop.
"You can't control jack. I tried to tell him what you said but he didn't want to hear it and now he won't speak to me! So you go tell him what you said to me. Now!" I continued. Alisa laughed and looked away. My anger took over and pulled her back and punched her. My adrenaline took over and I kept punching her.

I was pulled away by Sammy and Jack rushed to grab Alisa. I felt stupid. How could I? Sammy pulled me away and out to the parking lots to his car.
"What the hell is wrong with you?! Sammy wanted answers but I looked down and couldn't say a word. I didn't know what had just happened. It was a mistake out of anger. He put me in his car and took me home.
"Call me if you need anything Roxanne. I know you didn't mean to hurt anyone." He smiled and drove away.

I took a cold shower to remove the anger from my body. I was mad Jack ran to Alisa and not me. Why would I even think he would? He's been with her for months now.