Love adventure

Drunk words.

Two months passed and it was November. I haven't spoken to Jack after he told me to stop liking him. I was too embarrassed. Me and Sammy talk to each other and I would consider him a close friend but we kept our distance because of Jack. It was the last day before Thanksgiving vacation and although we only get a four day weekend, I was glad to get away for a little. Even though I was going to be stuck at home. My family was going to Disney world and I wasn't interested.

As I walked into homeroom Jack smiles at me.

He hasn't smiled at me in what seemed forever. I missed his smile.
"So guys. Kick back at my house today at seven. I don't expect Roxanne to come but I'll see you guys there?" He looked at Sussy and Amy. I was use to him ignoring me so that didn't bother me. Jack left to his friends.
"You're coming alright. He said he didn't expect you to come but he wants you too!" Amy whispered as if Jack was listening.
"Fine. I don't really care. Pick me up at 8?" We agreed. And I left to the rest of my classes.

My day dragged on like any other day.

Sammy gave me a ride home. We didn't say much. We agreed to see each other at Jacks.

I was so glad me and Sammy got along. I didn't have many friends. About five and that's about it. I didn't need much but I hated feeling like a complete loser.

I was getting ready and dressed casual. It was a kick back not a party even though it seemed like it. Way too many people for it to be a kick back. I was nervous again since I didn't see Jack much, let alone speak to him. I know he didn't hate me. I was just embarrassed I told him how I felt and he said what he said. I knew I had no chance either way because he has been with Alisa. A girl he's been dating for five months now and people say that's the longest relationship he's had. So I had to keep distance. I was never one to get in the way of someone's relationship.

I hear a car and walk out. Amy was driving and Sussy was in the passenger seat. When we got there, the whole house looked a mess. A lot of people were drunk outside talking to objects or making out with a wall. This was not a kick back. This was a big party and my anxiety flooded my head. I looked like shit but what are the chances of Jack seeing me tonight?
"Roxanne come here" Sammy appeared and pulled me inside of Jack's house. Jack was sitting on the couch with Alisa, hand in hand. I blushed well, because I was jealous. As much as I disliked him, I wouldn't mind holding his hand or being his girlfriend. I was never the type to like the school jerk but he made me feel a certain way I can't describe. As I was going to turn away to get a drink I hear Jack say,
"Sit down Red. I'll get you a drink. I owe you anyway"

He didn't owe me for anything. What could he be talking about? I sat down on the same couch as Alisa. She was gorgeous. Tall, tan, and no need for makeup. She had long natural brown hair. I became instantly jealous. I was short and not skinny. My thighs touched and I wasn't a size zero. I needed makeup and my hair was not natural. I hated my red hair at that moment even though I've loved it ever since I got it done.
"Thanks Jack Gilinsky" I said sarcastically as a grabbed the cup. I could smell that hard liquor inside. Not mixed with anything. At this point I didn't care. I wanted to forget how jealous I was and my anxiety.

Alisa and Jack were cuddling and I was tipsy and alone. Thirty minutes passed and that's when I couldn't see straight. Every thing and everyone was a blur but I felt amazing. Alisa left with friends and that's when I tugged on Jacks shirt.
"Jack. Why don't you let me like you? You're not a bad person. I like you." I repeated that twice and blushed when I realized how stupid I looked. Jack laughed it off and took me outside. I noticed no one was here anymore. Just about 15 people compared to the 200 that were here a little while ago.
"You can't like me because I have a girlfriend. And you're too good for me. You can't downgrade like that. Yes I'm hot. But I wouldn't be a good person for you" He said laughing. All my drunk turned to anger again like the last time I got drunk. I pushed Jack and said,
"Okay whatever. Go fuck your precious girlfriend. With her perfect hair and legs and all that shit. I knew guys like you were mean to girls like me. I'm so sorry I'm not a walking stick with long hair. I'm too good for you? HA nice excuse. I love it actually. So genuine. You are the school jerk Jack Gilinsky. And the dumbass too. You're too stupid to know anything anyway. Goodbye"

Jacks eyes filled with anger and walked away.

I don't remember how I got home but I woke up with a big headache. Still feeling bad about what I said. I forgot everything but what I said to him. I pushed him away once again, just because I was jealous. I had to talk to him.