Too Broken to Love

14

As my mind struggled with the realization that this was the same boy from my first ever crush. My body reacted with force to the feeling of his lips on mine. Every inch of my body tingled with desire for this man. I had cared about him all those years ago, and his departure had left me devastated, when I had finally seemed to get what I wanted.

But now in this moment, I had this man in front of me. The grown version of the boy that was the first to capture my heart and now that I knew he was the same person from back then, all I wanted to do was savor every minute I could, as if I could fill eight years of distance into the rest of tonight.

Of course I knew that was unrealistic, but I knew that I had to show him that no matter what, those feelings didn't disappear, and that his re-entry into my life had further shown that even with time my heart belonged to him.

"Averleigh!" he gasped "I think we should stop." he said pulling away.
"I don't want to stop Spencer. This boy in the picture took a piece of my heart with him the day he left, He was my first kiss, and the first person to show any interest in me! Now that I have you back I want to enjoy every minute!"
"I know and I have always wanted to come back and find you. I hated my parents for taking me away, but look at your life. You have amazing friends and wonderful kids, I just want to make sure that we are on the same page." He responded
"So what is it you want? My kids are a package deal, and I already told you I don't have a lot of time for dating!" I reminded him.
"I know that. But I want to try anyway. Whether we go out or stay in like tonight, I know I will always want you! you're all I have wanted for the last eight years!" he smiled.

His words resonated deep into my chest, sending a creeping blush up to my face. If it wasn't for the fact it was dark outside, it would have been unmistakable, but the lack of moonlight in the cloudy sky allowed me to hide my reaction.

"Come on!" I said standing up and grabbing the card and picture before reaching out my other hand to him. "I have something to show you!" I smiled before pulling him back into the house and leading him upstairs to my bedroom.

I motioned for him to sit on the bed while I walked into my closet and pulled out my private safe. He watched me from the bed, but didn't say anything until I pulled out a card with a picture that matched his. I closed the safe and walked back over to him sitting beside him on the bed.

"You know what the scariest thing in life is Spence?" I asked "It's knowing that you can't control everything." I smiled handing him the card.

To Averleigh Allen

It was the best night of my life too. I will always remember your left feet dancing, and the way your hair reflects the moonlight making it look all different colors. I really hate that I had to leave but apparently I don't have a choice. Just know that you will always be the most perfect girl I have ever met.

You never have to worry about me remembering you because there is no way I could ever forget how perfect that entire night was with you!

I hope you find all the happiness that I know you deserve!

Love

Spencer AKA 'Your Shane'

"You know I begged my parents to move back for weeks after!" He smiled down at the card.
" It's okay Spence, all that matters is that we are here now. But I do have a question?" I asked as he looked up.
"When did you start going by Spencer? I mean you were always so insistent on being Shane back then? What changed?" I asked puzzled
"Honestly nothing changed, but when I graduated high school people started using my first name, so I guess I just went back to it!" he smiled.
"Well, Spencer Shane Millington, I love your name and I think Spencer is perfect for a successful man like you!" I smiled as he leaned in.