DSMP oneshots

Tired (Angst)

I wrote this forever ago, just to let y'all know

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I'm tired.

Physically.

Mentally.

It's exhausting, being the one to bring smile to others, and cheer others on.

But who would do that for me?

No one, that's who.

Sure, they call me their friends.

And they are.

But they don't have my back like I have theirs.

My fans are the absolute worst.

I won't say it on screen, obviously.

I don't want to end up like Vincent.

But they are.

They're rude, mean, and just overall jerks.

Don't get me wrong, there are genuinely good fans.

They're the ones keeping me sane.

But in general, most of my fans are just.....ugh.

They all call me stupid.

Innocent.

Baby.

At this rate, Bad and Darryl are the same person.

And we are.

But we're not.

I'm not as stupid as I may seem.

I've made that obvious several times.

Yet people refuse to see that.

Bad is naive.

I am not.

Anything but.

But people refuse to see that.

I see people get shocked when I mention me doing something they couldn't possibly see Bad doing.

I'm twenty-five, for gods sake!

I'm not a child!

I'm not.....

I.....

"Is he okay...?"

"I don't think so, he's awfully quiet..."

"Is his mic muted?"

"Bad...?"

"Are you crying?"

"N-no, why would I be crying?"

"Are you okay?"

"Y-yeah, I-I'm fine."

"Are you sure?"

"Positive."

"Just talk to me!"

"You wouldn't understand!"

"Try me!"

"No, I know you wouldn't understand!"

".....even if I don't, I can assure you you'll feel better if you just get it out. Talk to someone, anyone. Doesn't have to be me."

I'm tired of being the cheery one.

Maybe I should start being the opposite.

Maybe then people will see me.

Darryl.

Not Bad.

Bad can burn in hell for all I care.

I'm tired of him.

305 words

I was inspired by a Dodie song, which you'll see is gonna be a recurring theme for most of the angsty oneshots (especially Bads)