My Dirty Little Secret (One Direction)

Chapter Eighteen

Louis's POV

"why Louis?" Olivia asked

"I... I promised I would never tell so she would stop" I stuttered

"if you told she wouldn't have done it more than once" Olivia shouted

"I always wanted to but she would know it was me and when she gets out she might hurt me again" I whined

"Louis she can't hurt you anymore if you tell on her" Olivia said with a serious look

"I want her out of my life but..." I stopped

"Louis you can say whatever you want okay there is nothing wrong with how you look, think, what you believe in or what you say" Olivia smiled

"I'm scared of her" I sighed

"I get your scared I mean who wouldnt be?" I asked

"I'm twenty one though, I shouldn't be scared of her anymore" I mumbled

"Louis I'm afraid of dieing" Olivia said

"how? You did at least twice" I said confused

"for a long time I thought it would be better if I did, one day I decided it wasn't the answer and I told myself that in the future I would get a real family" she said

"I can't be your family" I turned away from her

"yes you can" she smiled

"I can't!" I yelled

"Louis I consider all the boys family..." she frowned "even Zayn"

"is it wrong for me to love someone that doesn't love me back?" I asked

"what?" Olivia asked

"there's this girl and I think I'm in love with her but... She doesnt even know it" I sighed

"who?" Olivia asked

"she's awesome, funny, nice, she knows how to kick ass, she's really insecure and she's..." I stopped

"she's what?" she asked

"You" I said looking down

"oh my god" she said stepping away

"oh my god!" she said louder

"I'm sorry!" I yelled

"oh my god" she muttered

"I didn't mean to! I never wanted to" I whined

"no it's fine but... Oh my god Louis! Why didn't you tell me?" she asked

"I didnt want to screw everything up" I sighed

"do any of the boys know?" she asked

"no" I shook my head

"you don't tell anyone" she snapped

"about what?" I asked

"I love you too" she smiled

"for realios?" I asked

(is realios a word?)

"yes for realios!" she laughed

"oh my god... Oh my god!" I screamed happily

"now you know what it feels like" she laughed

"I didn't think you would like me... We're so different" I shrugged

"I mean... I wear plain you wear stripes, I wear dark you wear bright, you like slow I like fast" she nodded

"wait... We can't tell anyone" I said