My Dirty Little Secret (One Direction)

Chapter Twenty Five

Louis's POV

I scrunched my eyes shut refusing to cry any longer

"Louis open your eyes" Olivia said gently

I shook my head

"Louis look at me" she said harshly

I don't want to see any pity, any worry any sad faces I want to see nothing but darkness. That way I can't feel upset as much seeing everyone worry about me

"Louis please open your eyes" Olivia pleaded "I want to see those beautiful blue eyes"

I opened my eyes and look up at her as pools of tears brimmed my eyes again

"your eyes" Olivia frowned "they're black"

I quickly shut my eyes again and put my head back down forcing all the tears away

"Louis why are you eyes black?" she asked

I didn't answer her

"Louis" she said quietly "are you really hurt that bad?"

I nodded

"come on" she said intertwining our fingers

I felt a jolt up my arm but I still refused to open my eyes

We started walking and I got into the car and I sat by Olivia holding on tightly

"You alright Louis?" Harry asked

I wanted to say no but I wasn't going to say a word

"Zayn move" she snapped

Usually I would yell at someone for being rude to Zayn but right now I honestly couldn't care less if Olivia was snapping at him. She was just worried about me and that gave me the tiniest bit of hope that everything was going to turn out fine.

"stop grinning and drive" Liam snapped

I wondered who he was talking to and why they were grinning? Did they not care? A dead weight hit my stomach... What if they didn't care?

"Louis please talk to me" Harry whined

I wanted to talk to him but I couldn't... My voice had slipped away and I didn't want anyone to see how much I am hurting right now.

"you're always so talkative" Harry sighed "what's wrong?"

I was tested to open my eyes and tell him everything then cry my eyes out again. But I refused to do it, I was going to keep all my feelings to myself this time.

"Louis I'm worried about you" he said sadly

I wanted to tell him I know he cares but I kept on saying no to myself. I wasn't going to give in, I was going to put my emotions on lock down and hide them away so nobody would bug me

Harry stopped talking and the rest of the ride was silent. My eyes remained shut and I slipped into a dreamless sea of darkness

I heard the car stop and I jerked awake keeping my eyes closed... I almost opened them but I quickly forced myself not too.

"just a peek" someone whispered

"no" I said in my head

"can't you see how you're affecting them?" the little voice whispered "they are all super duper worried about you"

"shutup you aren't real" I snapped "you are just a voice in my head"

The lice stopped talking and I tensed up as I felt Olivia walk me inside