BROKEN (the list)

Thrity Nine

"Sam are you okay you don't look so good "
Sam was lost in thought as they drove through the highway.
They have been on the road for hours and she was beginning to feel very hot from the inside
Like her organs are on fire, the feeling wasn't new but this one came with a sharp deep pain coming from her bullet wound

Most times when she gets claustrophobic The first thing she does was to drink alot of water and then step out for fresh air. It would help regulate her speedy heart rate for a while

Drugs have always been the remedy to her outbreaks, when she is on drugs the pain vanishes into thin air but when she's not it like the scary and torturous version of getting cleaned over again

It reminded her of Quincy and how she always look out for her.
Everytime she falls off the wagon which was mostly intentional because she wanted to go back to rehab..

The first time was the hardest with time it was almost like her body grew resistance to the whole system. Despite her fear to be locked up in a confined space and heated up. Sam got use to it and the normal process of  two weeks became as easy as three days

Sam could hear Quincy's voice in her head whispering to her
'Come on Samantha, I know you can do it. You just have to want it so bad'

Sam still couldn't believe Quincy was gone. She might have been a terrible mentor but she did teach sam the best surviving skills

Marie's hand brushed her shoulder's slightly and she flinched, turning to realize she had mentally zoned out of the car

"Hey Sam, are you okay" marie looked really worried and Sam shook off her weary look

''Yeah.. Yeah sure" she swallowed hard

"No she's not. She was shot "
Harvey's voice interrupted from behind and sam stared daggars at him

"What! " marie squashed and bring the car to a halt immediately turning fully to sam

"Why'd You stop "

"You got shot"

"Don't listen to Harvey "

"Did You or Did you not get shot"

"Well but its no big deal"

"It is kinda like a big deal. You lost alot of blood Sam. Like a lot.. The first time in my life that I ever had to stitch anything it turned out to be flesh not a piece of paper "

"Shut the fuck up Harvey. "

"Oh God, Sam. How did that happen "

"We were attacked and I got shot "

"When"

"Last night"

Marie's face went soar, she was at the brink of crying

"Good heavens, just stop making that face right now. Or am actually going to puke.. Geez I need air"
Sam hopped down and walked to the side of the road

"Ask her if she has eaten anything. "
Harvey told marie as they got out of the car

"Sam have you eaten anything "

"Am not hungry"

"You look so pale and white as show, it like any minute now you are going to disappear. Why won't you just find something to eat"

"Well we are in the middle of nowhere. It not like I can feed on leaves and squirrels "

"Great it settled, we are going to stop by at the next diner we come across"