The things I'd like to say

Those I had as so called friends..

So you know when you have a group of people your age and you called them friends,
but you never understood them.

I do and I lost all but one,
sucks to be honest,
but you can't please everyone..

But it's not your fault,
ok maybe it was,
what would you do?

Cry?
That's reasonable.

Start mouthing off?
You'll hurt them and probably won't regain them again.

Just leave them forever?
if they hated you then they might fall apart.

I don't understand why some people rather than accept others they reject them, one thing I noticed most is how some groups have one person they all hate. If that one person that they all hated was to leave because of their Bullshit then the group is most likely to fall apart. 

Or that's what I witnessed myself, once I left those "friends" of mine they started to fall apart.

Why people need to hate on one to connect them all.. is making my blood boil.

I don't like it,

But I can't do anything to change everyone.

Except complaining that is,
but no one will bother to listen to my cries.

If people ignore the poor and homeless on the corner of the streets,
they won't listen to me except to say:
"Hey kid you ok? You lost?"

I'm not ok,
I'm lost,
Why do they care about me when I have everything the homeless guy besides me doesn't?

To them those people are a curse and invisible,
but I'm like them,
Hopeless in search of a long dead joy,
Possibly faithless in the God that abandoned them,
Suffering because of someone else's greed.

We all go through our own life wars,
but only 5 people in the world experience it themselves,
So don't go and compare it.

Being a living, walking Russian doll,
isn't something you want to be.

You know how we use the saying "Karma is something you can influence?",
Yeah I help the people I see on the corners of the streets when I can,
the rest of my family say that the reason that they are on the corner of the streets is because they don't want to work,
That's a lie and I know that because when I'm alone walking along the streets I give them 50-80% of any money I carry with me and stay and chat with them when I'm not in a hurry.

And that's supposed to be good Karma,
I don't see it anywhere near me or anything good lately,
Doesn't mean I'll stop helping them because I don't benefit from it.

I like helping,
And those I had as friends would tell you I did.

Hell!
I'm pretty sure I'll die because I wanted to help!

But as much as helpful as I am,
I'm the person you want to be on their good side,
But it's better if you don't try too hard.

Look,
No not up to me; I'll start to get stressed,
And if you look down at me I'll make sure you'll play in this game of mine and pay the price.
But if you'd like to I'll let you look down at me thinking you're better.

Only if you keep in mind what I'm capable and who I am.