Options (TsukishimaxReader)

Chp 14

(Tsukishima POV)

"Again." I muttered. Pulling her into a more passionate kiss. I was aching to feel more. The shocks that corrupted my body were making me go crazy. I didn't want to keep pulling away, but I couldn't make her uncomfortable. Her lips were so perfect. They were cold but warmed up quickly against mine. They fit so nicely with mine. Like they were molded for me and me only.

We shared our first kiss. I wanted more. My brain was telling me never to pull away from her again. 

I gave her one last peck. It took all my willpower not to keep going. I pulled away, still close to her face. I admired her beauty. Her features are so beautiful and unlike I'd ever noticed before. I feel my emotions start to go loose. I want more of her. I want to keep kissing her until I can no longer breathe. 

Gazing into her beautiful eyes, I saw the despair and sadness hidden in her dilating pupils. Fear rushed over me. I moved away quickly, and she looked up to me with a curious look on her. 

"Don't go through with the surgery." I didn't know what else to say. That was all I could say. I turned around quickly, heading for the door. I left without hearing a single sound out of her. The door closed behind me, and I began running.

Running as far as I could. I sped past the doctors. Past the receptionist. Past everything that could remind me of a hospital. I ran out the pure glass doors and kept running. I didn't know where I was going, and being honest; I didn't care. I need to get away. I felt my head screaming at me to go back but that I don't deserve to see her. My heart ached the faster I ran.

My body caught up to me, and fatigue invaded me. I hunched over to rest my hands on my knees. I saw tears spill onto my glasses, blurring my vision even more. 

I finally looked at my surroundings and realized I was near a beach. I hadn't even realized I lived near one. It was almost staged. I stared at it for quite some time. 

I let the bitter air sway my hair. Letting the cold numbness sink into me. I listened to the song on the sea as the waves angrily crashed into the shore. I felt so drawn to it. 

I took off my shoes and let myself be connected with the Earth. I felt a bit more steady now. This quietness was clearing up the fog in my head to grasp better everything that was going on. 

It was all my fault. Everyone around me is telling me so stupid for not knowing that I love her. I knew I was, but I didn't know how to tear down that wall of ignorance. 

I felt warm tears fall down my cheeks. I felt as they fell all the way down my neck and be soaked onto my shirt. I couldn't hold them back anymore. I screamed out, regret soaking my shouts.

"I'm sorry! I'm sorry!" I repeatedly shouted into the soft sand below me. 

"Tsukishima?" I froze where I stood. I wiped tears from my face again as much as I could before I turned to face the voice. Tanaka stood there with his hands dug deep into his pockets. His own eyes are red and puffy.

"What the hell are you doing." He spat out. I tried to keep the tears in. I couldn't let her brother see me like this. "Nothing." I whispered. Picking up my glasses and cleaning them off, trying to walk away.

"Treat her well." He said as I turned away. 

I stopped walking and placed my glasses back on my face. I turned to face him, and he was kicking sand below him. 

"She's stupid, and she can be so loud. Her laughs are so weird. She can be really picky and needy. She's can actually be really smart with certain things." He smiled to himself. "She's a perfect sister too." His head slowly turned up to me. "I really do love her. She's an amazing sister who I'd die to protect." He stepped forward. "But it seems like I can't protect her anymore." He sighed and threw his head back, quickly snapping it back up. "I need to trust that you will protect her for me. Even though she can protect herself most of the time." He gave me a weak smile. 

The eyes started to shine from the sun. I saw the crystal-like glow to them. "Fall in love with her." He declared. "Bring her home." He sighed out.

He lifted his hand and formed it into a fist. I did the same. 

"I swear I will, Tanaka. Please entrust her to me." I said as those last few tears fell from my face.

He smiled with all his teeth as our fists connected. 

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author here - idc what yall say, this revised version is better than the first pero that's just me. hmph

i just read a BL called Back to School and hOLYYY SIR. 
it earned my 2nd favorite BL. (my first is Salad Days) - like idk why Back to School really hit me different but i loved every second of it. gahhh i wish it were still going AHHH

anyway ---- bye bye for now yall:)