The Return of BSM..

The Heartbreak!

The tears was steady flowing, I get outside to the parking lot and Trent is standing outside on the phone, when he sees me he tells whoever he would call them back. I walk over to him and I just burst into tears! He tells me to let it out, I find myself saying.

"I never imagined life being this way, I never thought I would have to be admitting a guy that I once loved and will always have feelings for into a rehab center because he turned to alcohol when times got bad"

Trent follows up and says its best you did it then anyone else! I looked up to him and said yeah you're right, I said can we sit in the car and talk for a second, I have some things that I need to say, and before we go any further they need to be said now!We get in my car and he says what's up? What we need to talk about! I turn to him and say...

" first I want to tell you thank you, for being there for me even when I tried pushing you away many of times, you never gave up on me. I know I haven't always been the most faithful person in life, but I have been appreciative, through out everything we've gon through...but one thing I have to say is that no matter what I go through, that man that I just signed in to rehab will always have a small part of me and my heart..I know it sounds crazy after he's verbally abused me, cheated on me, had a baby with someone he cheated on me with, raped me, the whole nine yards! It sounds crazy but he's also the same man that gave me my first child that I lost four months later, (starts fighting back the tears) the same man that stuck with me through my worst times then, who never left my side when my father died. I can't just erase that from my life! I can't say that I'm in love with him because I fell out of love with him quick when you came back into my life, and he distanced me so much! I will say that I love him though, and no we will ever be together again but we will always remain friends. That has a close bond between us!" (By the time I finished that Trent got out the car)