The Return of BSM..

Surprise..

After he said that I got to thinking that I haven't had a cycle in some months! I kind of brushed the thought off in front of him, and said your crazy no im not...he says if you say so! I changed the subject and asked what he was drawing! He showed me his book! He drew a picture of his daughter, and his mother and father! Then I flipped a few more pages and it's a picture of me and him! With a letter on the back!

(Whenever I decide to give this picture to you, just know that im sorry! I never meant to hurt you in anyway what so ever! I was scared I was hurt and I needed help, I want to thank you! Thank you for being therefore me after all that Ive done to hurt you! I raped you and forced myself on and in you, I watched you sleep for days and what did you do a couple days after, you let me hold you and got me some help! When you could have called the police on me! Brit I'm truly sorry! I love you from the bottom of my heart. You may not believe me now but hopefully one day we can at least be friends!)

I whispered to him as he laid in my lap, I rubbed his ear and said I forgive you, and I love you too! That will never change! Even though I've moved on, the memories that I've had with you will last forever! He said Michelle,(He always called me by my middle name) I owe you! I replied saying count it as a blessing in return! He grabbed my hand and kissed it, and said congratulation sweetheart..my eyes instantly started to water! Before he replied the nurse said visiting hours are over!

I stood up gave him a hug and said see you Thursday? He said yes that'll be great! I turned to walk out he grabbed my hand, and said I love you Brit, I hope he makes you happy! I said he completes me, and said see you later!

Surprise Surprise!

As soon as I got to my car I called my doctor and asked could I come in for a visit, her nurse told me to come on in! I started to call the girls but I rather do this on my own! I cried my entire way over! Not because I might be just because I've been doing all the drinking and partying! I was completely unaware! I pulled up at the doctor, and walked in! I signed the log in book and took a seat!

It was kind of empty in here! Five minutes later they called my name, we walked In a exam room and she said so what's going on today Brittany I said I need a ultrasound done. She said wow okay! She grabbed the machine out the hall, and said placed the gel on my stomach and she says yes, no need for a pregnancy test! The journey is almost over! I replied saying meaning! She said meaning your 37 weeks pregnant...My mouth dropped, and tears started pouring down! I said you mean I carried to term? She said yes just about 3 more weeks to go! She said you're having a little girl!

I asked about the health of the baby! She said healthy as can be you looking at about a nine pound baby! She cleaned me up and I got off the table and looked in the mirror! I notice I had a gut but I didn't know it was a baby bump! The nurse told me to come back in three days! I left and got in the car! I grabbed my phone and texted Trent...

Me: Bae! We have to talk.

Trent: Are you okay? I'll be home in a few

Me: I'm fine, I guess! Just hurry home!

I was going to text the girls but I need to show up at the house, I called Lola she said she was at Nicole house! I said I'm on my way... Few minutes later I showed up over there and I walked in they was sitting down eating ice cream and watching lifetime! I said yall I'm pregnant. Lola says bitch don't play! Nicole say damn you too! I said me too; wait what you mean me too? I looked she says I didn't mean it like that! Lola says how far along. I replied saying 37 weeks! They both got on my ass like bitch you aint tell us! I simply replied saying I had no idea! Lola says well you might be right you don't look like you gained weight. Nicole says fuck you because I was huge! She said at least we have girl clothes already so no need to buy anymore! They both hugged me! And I started crying hard...