Fly,Fly butterfly

5

Sad

Biglang nag vibrate ang cellphone ko sa kalagitnaan ng discussion ng prof ko sa Pol-Sci.. Kinuha ko ito at tinignan ng palihim. It was Dad sending me some threats.

Dad of Hyz:

Don't you ever entertain some suitors there or else I'll hunt him.

Natawa ako bigla kaya screenin capture ko ito at senend kay Saurez.

Napalakas ang boses ng prof namin,kaya tumingin ako sa kanya at nag kunwaring walang ginagawa. Nag vibrate ulit ang phone ko dahil sa tawag naman ngayon, its from Dad again. I raise my hand and my prof looked at me.

"Yes ms. Vasquez?"nakangiti niyang approach sa'kin.Akala niya siguro may tanong ako e manghihingi lang naman ako ng permiso na sasagutin ko muna yong tawag.

"May I go out? My Dad is calling"

Na wala ang ngiti sa labi niya at tumango lang. Lumabas ako ng pintuan na dala ang bag, kasi once you get out of the room na hindi pa tapos ang discussion hindi ka na pwedeng bumalik kahit na kapag paalam ka pa.

I swipe the screen para ma sagot ang tawag.

"You didn't reply." Panimula niya
"Kumuha ako ng private bodyguard mo he's name is Sean" luminga linga ako upang hanapin kong nasaan.
"He's somewhere near... you can't see him but he can see you. So if you did try to entertain someone without telling me, you know malalaman at malalaman ko rin." Hindi ako sumagot at pinakinggan lang ang sasabihin niya.

"Wala kang sasabihin?" Pagalit niyang tanong.

I sigh and open my mouth "I've told you I don't have any suitor and I am not the only Vasquez in this universe. Dad it's for Hyz the black box and the letter are not for me. Pinapabigay lang." Frustrated kung sabi at nag lakad pa puntang field.

"Sinong nag papabiggay?" Kalmado niya ng tanong.

"You're an atty. Invistigate it. I have to go." Hindi ko na hinintay ang sagot niya inoff kuna ang cellphone ko at dumeritso sa bench.

I sat at the table not in the chair because I'm more comfortable sitting at the table. Kinuha ko sa bag ko ang journal at nag sulat ng mga gagawin.

Habang nag susulat ako sa journal nag vibrate uli ang cellphone ko kaya natigil ulit ako sa pag susulat.

Suarez:

I'm scared HAHAHAHA.

Binaba ko ang ballpen at nag reply.

Me:
You really should.

Suarez:
Should I be?

Hindi ako nag reply at pinag patuloy ang pag susulat, ngunit nag vibrate itong muli.

Suarez:
Dad and Tito are close maybe. He'll accept me if ever I court Hyz.

Napa isip ako bigla sa'n niya galing ang numero ko?

I typed asking him kung san niya nakuha ang numero.

Suarez:
In your diary:)

Pakealamiro, he did really read the pages here huh?

Tumingin ako sa relo ko tinitignan kong anong oras na it's 2:30pm wala na kaming pasok pag katapos ng Pol-Sci. Dahil wala ang next prof namin  kaya I packed my things and put it inside my bag. I check the things I've put outside kung na dala ko ba lahat. Ayukonang may makapulot pang ibang tao ng mga bagay bagay na belong sa'kin. Nang na siguro ko nang wala ng na iwan tumayo ako at nag lakad pa labas ng School.

Pumara ako ng taxi at pumuntang Elated. Dito ako  kumakanta, kada may free time. Nang makarating na'ko agad sumalubong saakin ang mga letrang kumikislap it says ELATED WHERE UNHAPPY GOES. Pumasok ako sa loob at hinanap si Pre ang owner. Nakita ko siya dun sa may counter kaya dumiretso agad ako don.

Kumaway ako ng papalapit na'ko.
"Your here! Tutugtog ka ba?" I smile and raise my brow as a response to her question.

Kinuha niya ang gitara sa likod at ibinigay sa'kin. Hinubad ko ang bag pack ko at inilagay sa high chair bago pumuntang stage.

Umakyat ako sa stage at tumingin sa alon ng tao. Kahit hapon na ang dami paring tao. I started strumming the guitar  and started singging.

Lately I think I'm invisible

And I don't know where to begin

I'm walking through walls

They seem so paper thin

Everyone's walking right past me

Like I don't even exist

If I were a home

They'd build right over it

I strum hard the guitar string and feel the presence of the people infront of me.

 

Can you hear me when I speak

'Cause the silence leaves me weak

It's like you never knew me at all

Can you feel me when I'm near

When I whisper in your ear

Do you hear me singing this song

My tears started to fall from my eye. Pinikit ko ng mariin ang mata upang hindi na pumuslit ang iba pang mga luha.

I lost my own shadow

Where did it go

No, I don't know how to

Live in this world

I lost my own shadow

Now who can I be

'Cause I'm not no human

If you see right through me

Me, me, you see right through....

I open my eyes, I look at the wave of audience, everyone's crying. I smiled and let my eyes fix in them. But one person got my attention it was Suarez filming what I've done...

Stupid. As always.

Bumaba ako ng stage at ibinalik kay Pre ang guitara.

"Isa pa" sigaw ng mga tao.

Pre just look at me but I didn't give her any response. I look for Suarez on the wave of people he's also shouting nakikisabay sa mga tao.

"Isa pa! Isa pa!" Nakakabinging mga sigaw. I kissed Pre cheeks and leave. Nang nasa labas na'ko agad akong pumara ng taxi para maka puntang NB.

"National Bookstore po" malamig kung sabi sa taxi driver.

Tumingin ako sa bintana ng taxi at pinagmasdan ang alikabok neto mukahang hindi pa nalilinisan. Kinuha ko ang cellphone ko at dito nalang ibinaling paningin sa cellphone ko.

I open the app I usually use to surf in the internet. While reading  some news about Brunei someone send me a message.

Suarez again.

Elij_Suarez:

Are you Sad?

I long press his name and press the ignore button..

Yes I am.. 

I was a daughter worth nothing in my family. Sa pamamagitan ng pag kanta na eease ko ang dinadalang sakit. When I'm singing I temporary forget everything bad happends.

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A/N: Ano mang problima mayroon ka, asahan mo mag wawakas at malulutasan mo rin yan. When you feel sad do what makes you at peace.Just like Xue sing the pain and temporary forget everything. :)