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Dear Hurt book,
No matter how many times I get beaten or hurt the pain of seeing Kenma look at Shoyo is way worse. I can feel it burning and I have tried to get it out. Literal I have got scars and tears to prove it. It just still hurts. Like some animal trapped in a cage.
Then my head it bangs and aches. It throbs and cries and it just hurts so fucking much. I didn't know love could hurt. Every time I see them together I just wanna curl into a ball and cry.
Bokuto and I always joke around and have fun. It's so annoying and shitty that we don't go to the same school. Ugh! He can make anyone feel great and is such and egoist. Lol! I try to be like him. It's hard. Sometimes I just wanna be alone and stop smiling for a split second. I sometimes feel sick about the way I act but unlike Bokuto I can't go emo.
"A friend" I'm putting it in quotes because I don't know what to call him but lately he has been getting on my nerves. I need to restrain myself from killing him. Yes killing cuz if I punch him I won't stop. The thing is he knows shit about me. Well no one really does but still. He calls me names. Yeh childish reason for hating him but still.
According to him I'm a slut... how? That's my only question. If I haven't even had my first kiss and still a virgin how? I mean. Not people know this and I tell people that I've kissed plenty. Not true. My parents don't even kiss me. Ha so jokes on them. *sad laugh* . Pfft I'm totally fine. Lol?
Anyways I should go before they get suspicious. Writing in VB practice is risky. If they see me writing they will be so weirded and questioning my sanity.
~ Kenma's best friend forever
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