No Longer Alive (COMPLETED)

Chapter Five

I've been detained in an unfamiliar room for almost a week now. I have no contact to anyone to know what's going on or what is going to happen to me. Hindi rin nila ako inabala pang bigyan ng pagkain o tubig man lang. The madame strictly prohibited anyone who dare to show kindness to me. She is really making sure that I will experienced hell starting from this day.

I just lay motionless in the the corner of the empty room. Ginahasa, pinagkatuwaan, pinag-akusahan, pinagsasampal, at pinagutom, hindi ko na alam kung anong meron sa katawan ko na hindi man lang ito mapatay-patay.

I have no strength left in me. I can't even shout for help. I can't even pray to God when my voiceless cries fell on deaf ears.

Am I even still alive right now?

Bakit maraming tanong sa buhay ko?

Why did I even born?

Why are these things happening to me?

Why am I still alive?

Ano bang kasalanan ng isang tulad ko at nagawa nila itong gawin saakin?

I have no one in my life at all. My biological mother leave me. The one who raised just turned a blind eye.

Even God himself abandoned me.

The world is truly a beautiful masterpiece made by God but life itself is not.

Sa loob ng halos isang linggo kung pagkakakulong sa kwartong ito, I tried to think of ways to kill myself to be freed from this inescapable misery.

Ngunit hindi ko magalaw ang kahit ilan sa katawan ko. I can only blink my eyes and nothing more.

Kahit kamatayan rin hindi ako pinagbigyan.

Nakakatawa at walang kwentang buhay.

I may be alive physically but my soul is no longer alive.

"Miss Rowena Wang."

Isang boses na parang robot ang tumawag sa aking pansin.

When I glanced slowly at the direction of the door, there stood a man in his early twenties wearing a grey suit. His posture and expression reminds me of lawyer. He must be my public lawyer.

Sa likod niya ang isang taong nakaputi na may dala dalang wheelchair. Sinenyasan niya ang nakaputing babae at tumango ito sa kanya.

Lumapit ito saakin at walang pasabing ibinagsak ako paupo sa wheelchair.

When my body landed on the cold and hard seat, I couldn't feel anything. My body is too numb to even have the ability to sense touch. Parang mga dahon rin ang aking mga paa at kamay. Napakagaan ng mga ito na hindi ko na rin sila magalaw.

Tanging mga mata ko nalang ang nagtatanging matatag sa buo kung katawan.

The man only looked at me and then turned his back. The woman in white also followed behind the man.

"I am your public lawyer, Ashtor Mendoza. Today is your private court hearing." He said to me in a monotone voice without bothering to glance back.

Nanatili lamang akung tahimik at nakikinig sa kanya.

"I heard about your case. Raping and poisoning the son of an influential and powerful politician." The lawyer stated as if it is nothing. There is no care in his voice at all. "I am an expert liar because of my career but I'll be completely honest with you, Miss Wang."

Saktong nakaabot na kami sa isang napakalaking pinto ng sa wakas ay bumaling na siya saakin. His dull lifeless eyes stared at me.

"Even if you're completely innocent and I am willing to believe and help you, there's nothing I could do." The lawyer smirked at me mercilessly.