The day they thought would never come

The Wedding part 1

... Jack POV ...

So its finally time. Here we go. After so many years joking about engagement and marriage, who would think I would finally be here standing with my bestfriend and the priest waiting for my future to come down the aisle. What an interesting trip life has been to get here.

Think about it. First I had my first love, Gab. I thought we would be together forever, through good and bad, no matter what happened. I mean as I think back I know she was always to good for me, but she stuck by me through thick and thin. I mean first Highschool, then to College, we vlogged, we fought, we made up, we did everything but classes together. I thought we would be like that forever. Then life happens.

I remember everything I did wrong, everything I could have just done a little better .... but it wasn't enough. To much stress on us with everything pushing in...

First was the break which I really thought would be just like the other one. We would work through it and be stronger then ever...

It hurts to think about even now. I remember how crushed I was when she told me that she wanted the break to be permanent. The floor literally dropped out from under me listening to her tell me that she would always love me but it wasn't enough anymore. She needed to go find herself.

I admit I was weak for awhile. I was trying to avoid everything, hide from life. I mean, me ignoring youtube? Who would believe I would ever do that. Some people use to accuse me of caring about it more then Gabrielle. How wrong they were.

It took me weeks, then months to work through the low I hit when that happened. Luckily I had my family and friends to help me. I owe them more then they will ever understand.

I admit, at least to myself that even as I was getting better the attacks and little snide comments from Gab's family and friends hurt. They hurt a lot. I was glad she wasn't attacking me, but really, after almost 5 years she was letting them make little glibs and comments at me? I told my friends not to bad mouth her, that it didn't, couldn't hurt me anymore. I still loved her. I can't understand why she let that go on.... Oh well.

Then Sidney decided to go off on me. She was vicious, twisting things, making somethings up, making things seem much worse then they were.

You know, now that I think about it, that was the cold water moment. That one didn't hurt as much and piss me off. I knew most of it was garbage so it got me up and forced me to go back on the attack. I am glad Sidney and I worked it out and she rescinded it. I realized it was time to move on and be Jack again. I should thank her really. She did help me get back to myself with that.

Hmmm, I wonder when the music is going to start. I won't admit it, but I am kind of nervous. Me, youtube king of making a fool out of myself to entertain the fans is nervous standing in front a room filled with family and friends waiting to start the next chapter of my life. I can be such a wimp.

Anyway, then Jaycee came into my life from my sisters. It really seems like it was fate. I mean both of us breaking up with our long time loves around the same time. Hanging out on my 21st birthday....

I remember 2 things from that day. I remember trying not to think that someone was missing and trying to drowned those thoughts through other things that I was now legal to do.

Then she was there and I wasn't alone in a way I was hating. I mean we weren't together or in the "in love thing" at that moment, but she helped fill the hole a little for me that day.

I really owe her for that. I don't know if it was luck or fate, but I finally started thinking that maybe there was a light at the end of the tunnel. Maybe there would be more to life then going on with regrets.

Wow, I remember how much we hit it off from then on. Hanging out with her really brought joy back into my life like nothing else....

I change my mind, I do think it was fate.

We just worked so well. She was fun, caring, laid back, and of course very pretty. She took me back to being a sophomore in Highschool. You know what I mean. Just that turning point ... From someone you know to someone that could be your bestfriend and love all in one.

When she felt the same way I was over the moon. I never thought I could get there again as fast as it happened. I remember thinking how amazing life was to take something so precious to me away and then give me something that could be even more.

I remember the first few weeks, the fun, the talking, the ... ok mind out of gutter, I can't hit myself in front of everyone.

I also remember the discussions about youtube. Those were interesting. It took a while for her to agree to join me. I admit, I wanted that. Over the years with my ex I figured out that I was much better with someone to make videos with. It played to my strengths more then being solo so I kind of talked her into it.

It worked so well. I mean yeah, we lost some subs, she did get a lot of hate at first, but we kept working through it.

I made her understand that people get upset with change, people expect things to always be the same when they want it to. It was a rough first few months.

It got good though. Eventually people moved on from choosing sides and living in the past. We got back to 2 mil, then 2.5. Everything went great. I got to enjoy making content with my love again.

...Ohhh here comes the music...

I guess going through my life is going to have to wait. Its time to get to the main event.

...Hey, I wonder why this toon became the bridal march song... It sounds like something out of Star Wars...

Here we go, and there is my little cousin coming down the aisle with flowers. She is so cute.

I can't wait until we have kids of our own.

And there is my sister. She looks beautiful. I remember how happy she was when I got together with her bestfriend. I really thought she would be upset about it, but she was so supportive back then.

Oh there is her sisters. WOW, they look .... bing .... Who would of thought I would fall in love with 2 girls that each have 2 sisters. Strange how life works out.

I am starting to lose focus here... Hold on Jack. We can do this.

There is Jaycee... Oh god she looks amazing. Like an angel being escorted down the aisle. I am not sure what I did to deserve my life, for finding two angels at different times, but I thank god everyday for it. The closer she comes the more I am losing my mind.....

Wow, back. Sorry about that. My mind just blanked for the whole ceremony. Even now its kind of hazy to me. I remember taking her hand and getting lost in her eyes. I remember the love that was mirrored back to me. The feeling of how right this is and how much my angel meant to me. The first sweet kiss as man and wife, knowing that I belonged to her and she to me for the rest of time.

I remember the congratulations, the sense of happiness that this was the way life was suppose to workout.

I kind of remember the pictures.... No lets be honest. I remember just staring at the angel next to me. I remember messing up the photos several times because I couldn't just not kiss her. I remember this warm feeling that will never leave me again.

Now here we are waiting to go into the party. Somehow I have a feeling this is going to get a little crazy. I mean I may be married, but I am still me. I really hope the video's are going to be good. I mean the short vids that I have Russ doing are already going up once we get in there, but those are just pieces of the ceremony and pictures that will be unedited. I can't wait to edit the full video and put it up.

What a shock... me on my wedding day still thinking about youtube.

I hope this guy remembers how I asked him to introduce us, it just feels right even if it is a little different...

"Everyone for the first time, please let me introduce to you Mr and Mrs Rubber Duck, Jack and Gabrielle Brinkmen!"

It is amazing after all we went through, we are back to where we were always meant to be.

I can't wait to see how crazy social media will go when these vids go up in a few minutes.