The day they thought would never come

Prequel 7 - Conversations part 1

Jack's POV-

Knock, Knock, Knock

Must be Jaycee, let me go open the door. "Hi baby."

Weird, a hug but no kiss? She can't really be mad at me for staying here last night can she? She said she was ok with it. Nothing happened. I wonder what kind of trouble I am in now?

Oh well, it was worth it. Gabrielle seems to be much better today. She really needed me here. She needed an outlet that her circle wasn't giving her. If that means I am in the dog house, so be it.

"Morning Gabrielle, how are you feeling today"

"Better. Not great yet, but better. Thank you so much for everything yesterday Jaycee... I don't know how to thank...."

"No Gabrielle. There is nothing to thank me for. I am just glad that Jack could help."

Ok.... weird, she really doesn't sound angry. Now I am all confused again... Well I guess that's getting to be a pretty normal state for me. Something tells me this is going to get really complicated quickly.

"We are going to be gone for about an hour, do you want us to bring you back anything? The pink drink maybe?"

"You don't have to get me anything."

"Gabrielle I wouldn't have asked if it was something I didn't want to do."

"Ohhh,.... Yeah Jaycee, that would be great."

"Cool. So we'll be back soon. Come on Jack, lets go get this girl her starbucks."

Huh....Ok, mind stop wandering. "We'll be back shorty Gabrielle."

"I know Jack."

The way she said that warms my heart. I never thought I would hear her talk to that way again. I am so in l.... Stop thinking like that. That's not fair to your girlfriend. You know Jaycee, the other girl you love.....Other girl? What is going on with me?

......

Wow that was a quiet car ride compared to normal. I mean no deep talk, no threats about last night, just small talk. Something is going on and I need to figure this out before it whacks me in the back of the head.

"Wait, lets not go in yet. We need to talk."

Here is comes. I knew it was to good to be true. Now I am going to get killed.

"First, Jack I am really proud of you for pushing through everything and helping Gabrielle. It shows how wonderful of a guy you really are. I knew it, but you need to start seeing it.... Now, let me get this out. I need you to just let me finish ok?"

"Jack, I love you and I have loved being with you. But I knew this day would come. I didn't know how or why, but I knew it was going to happen one day."

What is she talking about? I am not sure I can take anymore confusion before my brain melts. What would come?

"I knew that eventually you and Gabrielle would meet and talk and work through all the pain and anger. You guys were too right for each other for it not to happen at some point."

Well yeah we talked. We did work through everything that had happened. We had to if I was going to be able to help Gabrielle. What is she saying?

"I knew you guys were one of the few people in this world that are truly meant for each other. I have known you guys for a long time now, well before we started dating. I was always there on the edge of the circle. I think that's what let me see it so clearly compared to everyone else. I was there to see you guys, but not really involved in your lives."

Wait, what. This sounds a lot like a breakup to push me back to Gabrielle. That couldn't be...Could it? I love Jaycee. (But do you love her more then Gabrielle?) I want to be with Jaycee. (Can you really say that now? After last night? Yes you lover her...but are you really in love with her? Were you really ever prepared to go that far?)

Great my mind is fighting with me again. I really thought I had knocked that other braincell out this morning.

"Look, I know you love me. But I know you love Gabrielle also. You can say you are over her all you want. But I know that while I made myself a little place in your heart, that heart belong to her. It always has."

"You can't tell me that your feelings for Gabrielle aren't rising from where you buried them. I can see it in your eyes when you look at her Jack. I love you. I know you to well to miss anything like that."

"You told me that last night Gabrielle tried to kiss you and you stopped her. Can you honestly say that you would stop her if she tried again?"

Wait, what.... Of cours...  No, she's right. I wouldn't. Last night everything was still so fresh. I was so worried about Gabrielle that I was able to shrug off the pull. I don't think I could stop it again. Part of me wants her to try it again.

"So, Jack I am breaking up with you. I love you Jack, but I never let myself fall head of heels in love with you. Not because I couldn't. That would have been easy. It was because I knew you and Gabrielle were destined to be together. It was going to happen."

Wow. That hurts. I know she is right about so much, but it does still hurt. I mean I do love Jaycee. (But is she really who I want to end up with? If there is a chance with my angel again?) Jack, be honest with yourself. If you can even have those thoughts... It's not right to Jaycee. It would never last if you feel like its the safe bet to settle on. Jaycee deserves better then that.

"Now I am not just doing a dump and run Jack. You are one of my bestfriends still. I love hanging out with you and doing youtube. So I am not going to just vanish. I want to be your friend. I want to be Gabrielle's friend. I want to help her and you. Please don't push me away."

"Jack, as a girl, listen to me. Don't push Gabrielle. She is still fragile. Let her set the pace for things as they come. It might be slow, it might be fast. No matter what, don't screw it up again. Or I will hurt you. Do you understand?"

Nodding. Jaycee can be really scary when she wants to be. She really is an amazing person. Anyone would be lucky to be with her. I was lucky to be with her. If my heart wasn't already owned by Gabrielle I would spend the rest of my life showing her that.

"Ok, do you have anything to say Jack?"

How do you tell someone how much they mean to you in a situation like this? "Thank you Jaycee. I do love you, you know. You were always to good for me. I am sorry it's working out like this. I can't dispute you on anything. Your always too right about everything. But you have to know I never intended for this to..."

"I know you didn't Jack. I didn't either. I wanted to take a shot with you even though I knew it would end this way. I will never regret the last year Jack. I will never regret giving us a chance. But we can't go on acting like nothing has changed when the last day has shifted everything."

But what now? How do we go on from here? "So what do we do now? I mean do we tell Gab? Do we wait? Do we...."

"We will tell her when we get back Jack. In fact I would like for you to take her dog for a 10 minute walk. Can you do that for me? I think this is a girl conversation to have. Just so you don't screw it up to badly."

There's my girl.... Ok, there's the Jaycee I know. Keeping my foot free of my mouth when she can. "I can do that. So any other earth shattering things to tell me before I have even had a coffee this morning?" Good Job, crack a joke.

"Nope, come on my friend, lets go get a pink drink and head back."

As we wait here in line I can't help thinking that life can summed up in two words sometimes. Hard... and weird. I wonder if it ever gets easier? I should really ask dad about that. 

Well it's a new day. It's a new beginning. I have been dumped three times now.... but at least this one has a silver lining. I am not going to fall into a hole. I am going to climb a mountain... Hopefully with Gabrielle at my side again.

I guess what they say is true, relationships can be fleeting but love can be eternal.