For You Only [MOONSUN]

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  Yongsun POV

  I nervously play with my fingers as I wait outside of my building, like Byul told me to. I can feel tears threatening to leave my eyes, but I look up to avoid them falling. After just a couple of minutes, I see her car.

  I get in, rushed, and she starts driving even before I put on my seat belt. She's wearing sunglasses and it's not that sunny outside, so I know she's been crying.

  There's a long moment of silence on our way to the hospital, before Byul decides to break it with comfort words.

  “Let’s stay positive, okay?” She briefly looks at me, but her eyes quickly face the road again. “We have to do that for her.”

  I nod, and a single tear makes its way down my cheek.

  “I guess I'm just a bit scared.” I say, swallowing hard.

  Byul agrees but doesn't answer. I guess right now that's the best thing to do, since none of us is in the right position to give advice or wise words.

  About fifteen minutes go by and she parks the car at the local hospital. We both leave our seats as fast as we can and make our way into the building.

  I stay behind as Moon rushes to ask the room's informations, and she comes back in less than a minute with two cards.

  “We can use these to get in and see both of them, but we have to stay together. I can't get in without you.”

  I nod and slightly smile at her, before we walk in large steps to the rooms.  I didn't need to ask Byul whose room were we getting in, because I know none of us could stand another moment of waiting.

  The younger opens the door and I rush her. As I'm getting in, I see Wheein lying on the bed. Her arms are full of tubes and she's even getting oxygen from this weird machine. I sigh and we both sit next to her.

  We spend a few minutes like that, just looking at her and not knowing what to say. She looks weirdly different and definitely hurt. It's like she depends on those machines now.

  “Don’t forget that she can't hear you. She's not awake.” Byul puts her hand on my shoulder, breaking the silence once again. “No need to babble things.”

  I nod. “Yeah, no need.”

  Moon gets up from her chair. “I’m gonna go get some water. I'll take the card so I can come back in.” She kisses my head and leaves, and I can hear her sniffing. There's a really soft girl that she sometimes tries to keep inside, but she's not being able to this time.

  I look at Wheein. Our pup is not with us, at least her mind isn't, and her body is connected to all sorts of things that I don't really understand. I just know that it means things are serious. I sigh. Right now, even if Byul told me there's no way she'll listen, I really wanna talk to her. Just for a moment.

  “Wheeinie?” I let out a whisper, and hold her colder hand. “I-I know this is really awkward, but...” I pause and sniff, trying to keep the tears away for a moment. “Do you remember when we met?” I giggle, but the tears start to fall down anyway. “You were so young, and wouldn't let go off Hyejin. I kept telling you you needed to be more independent, remember? You needed to speak up, because you were so weak back then. You wouldn't raise your voice even when people deserved it, and I know I always got mad at you for that.” I wipe away the thousand tears that are now falling down my cheeks, making their way to my lips and my chin, and even my neck. “I said all of that because I was so jealous. I wish I was a little bit like you, so unaware of the world, so young and free. You were all I wanted to be, Wheein.” I caress her hand. “But I knew making you stronger would come in handy. I need you to do that now. I need you to be the strongest you've ever been.”

  I stare at her, in crazy hopes she would wake up like they do in the movies. But she looked the same, and didn't even move a finger.

  “It’s crazy, isn't it?” I chuckle at my own thoughts. “I am once again being so hard on you, just like I've always been. I hope you forgive me one day.” I smile at her, wishing she could smile back.