For You Only [MOONSUN]

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  Moonbyul POV

  I get in the room with a cup of coffee on each hand. While opening the door with my elbow, I can hear Yongsun whispering things, just like I knew she would end up doing. She's always been the kind of person to believe in the good of every situation, so I realized she'd want to talk to Wheein even if the younger wasn't conscious at all. She has the spirit of a true leader.

  I get in silently, not trying to interrupt anything, but Yongsun stops whispering and looks down. She isn't aware of my presence, so I put down the cups on the table and get closer to her, putting my hand on her shoulder.

  “Are you okay?” I ask, sighing right after. I know it's such a silly question.

  She shakes her head. “It’s a little overwhelming. Like, I have so many things to tell her when she wakes up, but I don't even know if she will.”

  I nod, agreeing with what she's feeling. I remember meeting Wheein for the first time and immediately connecting with her. Her sweet laugh and her child-like jokes made my heart melt for her and I know every other member felt the same. I just don't think any of us has ever told her that.

  “Do you wanna talk to her?” Yong turns to me, her face red from crying.

  I shake my head. Deep down I know it would be good to tell her everything I feel for her, to talk to her about the times she helped me and she didn't even realize. It would be nice to tell her that I love her, because I don't remember when was the last time I did that. But it's not a conversation if I'm the only one talking, so it becomes nonsense.

  Yong nods and holds my hand. “D-do you think she's mad at me?”

  I raise one of my eyebrows and sit down next to Solar, facing her.

  “What do you mean?” I ask, almost whispering.

  “As the oldest of our group and as a person myself, I've always been trying to push all of you to do better and to be better. But I know I probably didn't set boundaries for myself and ended up making you feel bad.” She vents, sniffing right after and looking down, avoiding my eyes.

  “Yong.” I call her in a low voice. “Look at me.”

  It takes a while, but she eventually looks up and our eyes meet. Hers are swollen already, and turning red from sobbing.

  “You know you made all of us better people.” I slightly smile at her. “You are the sun to everyone around you, and there's nothing to apologize for. We all love you so much, as a leader and as a person.” I boop her nose.

  She lets out a smile, but her expression makes me think she's about to cry again.

  “Should we go check on Hyejin? Or do you need more time with her?” I ask her, stroking her hair.

  She doesn't answer, but nods and gets up, so I know we're gonna leave. She starts walking to the door, but I stare at Wheein before following her. I smile, internally hoping she's gonna wake up soon. I mouth an 'I love you' to her and make my way out, wishing I could hear her say it back to me.

My heart races even more as we make our way to Hyejin’s room. How can we tell someone that there's a chance they won't hear their soulmate laugh again?