Safe In Your Arms (Joe Sugg/ThatcherJoe fanfiction)

Chapter 22 - The Knife

I shuttered as a hand rested on my shoulder, "Hey Kat, It's me Justin" I looked up and it was the boy from the cafe "Come on let's get you out of here" Justin took my hands and helped me to my feet, I pulled the bottom of my dress down and wiped away my tears. Justin took off his jacket and wrapped it around me. "Thank you" I said weakly, we walked back out onto the street "Kate!" I turned and Zoe engulfed me in a hug "Where the hell have you been!" "I-I nearly got raped" I burst into tears and fell to the ground "Kate calm down, let's get you back to the club" Justin picked me up in his arms and I wrapped my arms around his neck and continued to cry. "We found her!" Zoe announced as we walked back in the club. Justin placed me down on a chair and people began crowding me, my mum hugged me "Are you okay?" I couldn't bare to tell my mum "Zoe" Zoe made her way beside me and crouched down "I want to go back to the house" "Okay, we can get a taxi back right now" Zoe took my hand in hers and I looked into her eyes "Everything will be okay" she whispered. I turned to my mum "I'll call you tomorrow" she said before kissing the top of my head and walking back to my dad. Zoe helped me to my feet but I couldn't walk. Justin picked me up again and took me outside while Zoe got us a taxi. Justin put me down outside the taxi, I hugged him "thank you" I whispered and got in the taxi.

Zoe and I got back to the house, no one was there so it was silent. "I'm just gonna call Alfie, I'll just be in my room" I put on a fake smile and Zoe left. I walked to the kitchen to get a glass of water, I stood by the sink and tried to understand why this had happened to me. Ericka was right, I don't appreciate Joe, I may as well not even be here. There was a knife block that sat right beside the sink. If it was that easy for Ericka why couldn't I do it. I placed my hand on the handle of the smallest knife and I slowly pulled it out of the block. I quietly walked up the stairs and into my room. I closed the door slowly and went into the bathroom, I locked the door and sat behind it. I looked at the knife and thought of what I could do. I examined the blade and slowly placed it on my wrist. I pierced the skin and red liquid started trickling down my arm. I cut into my arm a few more times until my left arm was covered in blood. I stood up from the ground and walked up to the mirror. What I saw in the mirror wasn't me anymore, my hair was a mess, my make up had run all down my face and my dress was ripped in a number of places. I washed off the blood and crept out of the bathroom, I made my way to the bed and lay down. My life was now over, I had nothing. I started to sob loudly, Zoe came rushing through "Kate what's wrong?" I never replied "Kate what happened to your arm?" I could hear the panic in her voice "I'm calling an ambulance" Zoe ran out of the room and I could faintly hear her on the phone. Moments later two paramedics arrived, I was taken into the ambulance straight away and the paramedic gave me an oxygen mask because I was crying so much I couldn't breathe properly. I could hear Zoe telling the paramedic what had happened.

We arrived at the hospital and I was seen to right away. My breathing was now back to normal but the pain was still there. After speaking with a doctor, a nurse was sent in to clean and dress my arm. Zoe was calling my parents to tell them where I was, so it was just me and the nurse. "How did you do this then?" I tried to hold back tears "Rough night?" I nodded "It's okay darling, you're safe here" the nurse was so sweet, she continued to tell me about her little daughter while she cleaned my cuts. I could hear shouting coming from the corridor, "Kat!" Joe burst into the room and was followed by Zoe shouting "She doesn't want to see you Joe!" Joe ran to me and grabbed my hand "What happened Kat?" I removed my hand from his and the nurse stood up "I think you should wait outside" "But Kat I-" "Go or I'll call security" I didn't dare look into Joe's face, it would just kill me more. Joe walked out of the room and Zoe followed him and all that could be heard was shouting. The nurse held my hand, I looked to my now bandaged arm and then I looked to the nurse "It's okay, do you want me to send your friends in?" I took in a deep breath and nodded. The nurse left the room and walked down the corridor. Zoe appeared a few minutes later "Where's Joe?" I mumbled "I told him to wait, I need to ask you what the hell you were thinking?" "I heard Ericka and Joe in the bathroom back at the club, so I ran down the street and into the alley. I sat on the ground and cried th-" "Why didn't you come find me?" Zoe interrupted "I tried to!" I barked back "anyway that's when the two guys tried to rape me. I couldn't take it Zoe, I was scared!" Zoe was now crying "I'm so sorry Kate, I should have been there" she hugged me tight which just made me cry. Zoe tried to reassure me that everything was going to be okay, then Joe walked into the room.