A Vampire king |Kim Taehyung|(Wattys2019)

I'm So Sorry

Yeah... I'm alive.

And, I'm so sorry for leaving all of you guys hanging. I'm so so so sorry for that. I should have at least say something about before making a decision to leave. Saying "sorry" won't be enough, I know. I did a terrible job. It does look like I did it on purpose but it really wasn't. I don't know how to explain it. Bcz at this point it will do nothing... I mean, it's been way too long and I do understand that.

It's just reality is hard.

But remember that I told you guys that I will share about what I'm going through by uploading a chapter or something? Yeah...

I wanted to, but I thought I'll be sharing way too personal info about my life. So.. later I kinda felt that, ya know, maybe I shouldn't do it. But, I'll tell a lil bit about it now. And I hope it's enough to kinda see what might have happened to me at that time. And it literally destroyed my motivation to write again or to do anything actually.

|Edited out the "stuff"|

I hope this is enough.

I've been getting various bad words via insta and Wattpad messages. Some were very horrible. Some shamed me as a person. I just saw today. Which I kinda deserve for not updating, but still, it hurt. A lot. I know I deserve the hate. But I don't deserve the bad words that were written to me. You don't know what was I going through. I was so devastated with life that I lost my motivations. And again, I KNOW I should have updated about it. And I'm so sorry for that. I really am.

I uninstalled Wattpad actually. I just gathered my courage to install and write now, when a friend reached out to me in insta. We befriended here actually. She was one of my supporters of this story and she's been here since the beginning. It melted my heart actually. I realized how bad I was to not to let everyone know that I won't be writing anymore. And I was afraid to say it bcz many of you will feel sad. And that was so rubbish of me. I'm so sorry again.

There were also people who was actually concerned about me, that... Idk, how to put it into words. It just felt so heartwarming to see that some people were still tryna look out for me even tho I was so terrible for not updating and leaving everyone hanging. Y'all are angels. Thank you so much. I just didn't had the courage to download Wattpad again but ya know, today is an exception.

But you guys kinda have a insight of my life. If the atmosphere around is toxic, I can't bring myself to write. I can't feel the characters or the story itself. Writing should be something so natural and with a open mind. Not by forcing myself to write. And, the atmosphere where I'm currently living, is not healthy for me. But I'm trying to cope. I really am. There is just nothing there for me to get motivated. I can't be myself in this house. I'm so tired of everything. To be honest, just waiting to be dead. I really don't wanna live haha. But again, I guess, gotta cope with it.

So, yes. I won't be writing anymore. Forgive me please. I'm trying to focus on my future career for now. I'm trying hard to get settled and just somehow find peace. I hope you guys understand. Please do. Bcz, I really can't get myself to feel for writing.

I really do appreciate all the love you guys gave me. I really really do, from my heart.

I'll uninstall Wattpad again after some days. I want some people to see my message before I edit the 'abusive scenes' out. Bcz come on it doesn't look nice haha. But it was necessary to share for now. And I understand if you guys are still angry. But try to understand me too...

Thank you so much and I'm so sorry. Goodbye.