I Accidentally Cared[stopped]

Love - November 23 2014

-Leo-

Haven't wrote in this book for quite a while now... Due to problems with April and I couldn't even think about writing. I'll just summarize all of what happened.

April was in a terrible condition again and she was having mood swings along with depressing times and she told me that she had something to tell me but time wasn't right yet which I'm still curious about.

But, she did tell me that.. That, that she thinks I should leave her.

After all this time I find a girl like this and she tells me I should leave her!? No.

She also went on about how bad she feels about this and how bad she feels for me for even doing all this for her...

I told her no matter what condition she is in or what ever I would sacrifice myself to save her and have a part of me within her or, I could just pay everything. Love isn't about payment, jeez...

Now, talking about love here, if you love someone so much, you don't give up on them or put them down or use them... Which is something you should not do. Remember, the one you were before you fell in love is the one that she loves not anyone else.

And if someone interferes with it and puts you down and steals her its not true love. Remember that its not...

Why am I even talking about this? Like it's not like it's happening to me, but I guess it could I don't know but from what I see her and I are amazingly strong and will take this relationship to the next level.

But speaking of real relationships... If you are moving or what ever it doesn't even matter how long you leave for or what's going on. You are always there in your lovers heart. Think about soldiers, women wait years for their lover to come back.

And that's what true and strong love is.

I swear this isn't even a journal anymore its a guide... Who ever reads this will probably think I'm a psycho..

5:59 PM

Well, I'm going to go visit April right now, because apparently she got way better at everything overall and she is pretty healthy right now.

6:34 PM

"Beautiful as always my little kitty."

"Aw thanks, but no, I look terrible right now." She Laughs

"No you always look amazing, your process doesn't matter to me or your opinion, I know you're gorgeous, and smart and charming and just an amazing perfection."

"Awh, thank you but you know I'm not perfect, especially with this heart."

"That means nothing because you are strong and amazing and everything will br fine."

"I love you."

"I love you so, so much too."

                           "I love you too my beautiful diamond."

         "Angel." I cried.

"No! You're my angel Leo!! You are my angel!" She cried

"Thank you, i love you." Sighed

Note - this another one of the bad stressful moment type of pages, but I felt like pointing out a few points so its mostly like motivation and love I guess x] but yeah, I'm going to try to be more active now that the exams are over and I have time to think.