I Accidentally Cared[stopped]

Why

-April-

For what? For what reason... Why is life like this??? Whenever I am happy I lose it all. Its like life wants teases me with happiness but gives me a ton of sadness instead...

Sometimes I just wish I was gone because my heart is dark and almost gone anyways. I have no faith in anything anymore. I care to much but my heart is to dark to help me care. I'd rather not tease everyone with the darkness of my heart and my carelessness (if that's even a word).

I love you, but I don't know what to do. How do you simply deny what you said you wanted. How could you just throw me away like that. It was so fast and so abrupt. I hate myself. I hate myself. I HATE MYSELF.

"Why Leo why..." I cry...

"I love you." I say out loud.

"Fuck you April" is all I hear in my stupid head

"You are a stupid ugly bitch. Commit suicide, fuck yourself you stupid I'll whore. You fought for happiness and that's what happens. Care about your fucking self and make yourself a better per....
*BUZZ*

"SORRY, I'm soo soo sorry. And I actually don't know what to do April I love you but I lost it. I don't want to hurt you because I hate myself. I didn't want to hurt you because the love that's supposed to be for myself and you spread around and the love for "us" left me and I didn't want to hurt you because somehow it got to someone else. I will support you and I care so much. I'll help you through this but I don't want anything anymore... Nothing."

"WHAT!!?" I cry..

I hate myself. I hate myself. I want to die.

Fuck my life. I feel betrayed I feel like... I feel like I'm nothing anymore.

April : I just wanted to let you know that you've  cracked the tattoo of my love towards you on my heart, but I will also always love you and keep you in my heart. Baby.

April : I love you. You've made me the happiest of them all. You're, you're different :( sorry for making you feel what you did.

10:30 PM

He won't reply... I'm losing hope, I wish I knew how he feels like from his perspective... I'm going to text him everyday, day by day. I can't just leave him. I love him.

a.n

Sorry for inactivity and this short chapter ill try to come out with some amazing chapters in the future:) later ^-^