Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind

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by The_Pics

by The_Pics

Day 19 - Someone That Pesters Your Mind

Dear Person,

I wrote this same letter about you last year, but the situation has changed slightly. Last year I was writing it as a sort of good pester, but this time I’m not so much. It’s more bad than good, although I would rather not say ‘bad’. Confused? Me too!

So you pester my mind, did you know that? It’s not really either in a positive or negative way, but it is annoying!

I haven’t seen or talked to you in over a year now probably. We were great friends for a year, then when we came back to school for another year, I was going through some stuff that I didn’t tell you about. I changed a lot and blocked out a lot of people, including you. We barely talked that whole year, and then you moved schools without any way of contacting you since you didn’t have Facebook, changed phone numbers and never checked your emails. I felt bad then about blocking you out because I missed you. I still do miss you.

You used to confuse me so much! Two years ago we had such an awesome friendship and by the end of the year I had to admit I had a bit of a crush on you! Especially at your party, you were so carefree and fun, different to the guy I knew from school. But you used to open up to me and then be ignoring me a second later. Why? It confused me so much!

The last day of school two years ago was one I will always remember when I think of you. We had so much fun, just the two of us. You were chasing me around the classroom, sticking all those Velcro stickers on me. It was really fun! And then at the end of the day, you didn’t know if you were coming back to the school the next year (although you did and ended up leaving a few months into the year) so you gave me about a billion hugs. You looked so sad, and I was too! I didn’t want to lose you, but little did I know I would lose you on my own stupid accord just a few months later.

The next year came, and I was a different person as I said before. You didn’t know why and I refused to tell you. But you would still try to cheer me up when I looked sad at school. We had a poking war at the start of the year. I had bruises on my arms for months from your poking, but I doubt I gave you any with my weak poking!

I hadn’t heard from you in about a year and then I got a Facebook request from you. I was SO excited, thinking of how much I was back to my normal self again and that we could slip back into our easy friendship. But I sent you a message, you saw it and didn’t reply. I thought that maybe because you saw it a few hours later, it was just because you might have thought I wasn’t online anymore. So I sent you another message. You saw it a minute later and still didn’t reply. I saw you messaging your other girl friends on your wall, and being surprised by how much you’d changed! They were all flirting with you and you were doing the same back… to ALL of them! Maybe it’s best that you didn’t reply to my messages after all.

So you pester my mind. You make me wonder what it would be like if we were friends again. What it would have been like if I didn’t hide things from you when I was going through hard times. I mean, I know you would have helped me through them like I did to you, what was I scared of? You make me wonder why you don’t want to talk to me, and all of these things together make you pester my mind… it’s rather annoying!

I hope one day we can repair our friendship.

Sorry for the extremely confusing letter!

Em xx