College Love Affair

Chapter 27 - Graduation?

--Megan--

I pressed my phone against my ear after dialing the number, hoping she would pick up. I didn't know who else to turn to and I needed advice.

After about 5 rings, she answered. "Megan?"

"Brooke."

"What's up? Everything ok?"

"I-I can't explain on the phone, can you come over?"

"You know I wouldn't be allowed on school property since I'm not a student there anymore."

"No. I'm not at school, I'm at my house."

"The one you bought to move into after you graduated?"

I nodded my head in response and then realized she couldn't see me so I said yes. Brooke said she was on her way now and then we both hung up.

15 minutes later, I heard my doorbell ring and I headed for the door, hoping Brooke could help me.

When I opened the door, I found Ian standing on the other side. I was stunned. After how we broke up, I never thought I'd see him again. Especially voluntarily showing up at my doorstep.

"Ian what are you--"

"--Did you really do it?"

"Do what?"

"Cheat off of Crystal on your pyshcology exam?"

"No."

"Then why are you here? Why aren't you trying to prove your innocence?"

"How can I? I have no proof. There's no point anyways. I've ruined everything. My relationship with you, my relationship with Crystal, even my relationship with Tyler. And now I'm going on about my shitty life to my ex-boyfriend who probably doesn't care about a single thing I'm saying." I said as I began laughing as tears fell down my cheeks.

Ian immediately stepped inside and took me into his arms. "Shh...It's ok." he said.

"Ian...I'm sorry for everything. You have no idea how many times I wanted to tell you, but I just couldn't. I couldn't find the words. I didn't know how to tell you without hurting you. I thought at the time that not telling you was the best thing, but I was wrong because not telling you hurt more for me and you than telling you would." I said as I shut the door behind me, walking to the living room.

"You don't have to say anything about it but I just need to tell you how I feel." I continued.

"The first time things happened between me and Tyler, I was drunk. I had no sense of reality and I only thought about you. I thought I was with you. I knew after that that it could never happen again. But for some reason, I found myself compelled by Tyler. I found myself wanting to be with him more and more each day, but that never changed how I felt -- how I feel -- about you. As things continued, I felt guiltier and guiltier for what I was doing to you. I wanted it to stop because I loved you too much to let you go. So I broke things off with Tyler because I knew who I wanted to be with, but then he came back into my life saying he broke up with Crystal for me and loved me and wanted to be with me and then it happened again." I stopped for a minute as tears began to run down my face again.

"Megan you don't have to--"

"--No. I need to finish." I said, cutting Ian off.

"Ian you need to know that I always loved you. From day 1 you had my heart. Even when things were complicated with Tyler, I still knew that I loved you. I knew you were the one for me."

"Then why'd you cheat on me?"

"Because...because....I-I don't know..."

I honestly didn't know why. Everything I had told Ian was true. He was the one I wanted to be with and I did love him. But when it came to cheating on him with Tyler, I didn't know why I did it.