surprise | g.b.d

twenty-three

1 week later
it's been a week since i jackson tried stealing my things out of grayson and i's apartment. i'm not as shaken up as i was but i still worry about. i haven't spoke to olivia since that day and i don't plan on it. it was rude of her to say that when she didn't know anything about what jackson did to me and my mental health.

i'm watching kaden and he's taking a nap right now. so i decided to jump in the shower real fast since i watched him overnight. ethan and grayson went to new york for a meeting and a shoot. i was happy for them. opportunities like that just don't come overnight.

i took a quick 10 minute or so shower and started going through emails on my laptop in the living room. it was refreshing to only be here by myself. grayson is sweet and everything but i like my alone time when i do get it.

i was writing emails upon emails and getting lots of work done. i decided to check on kaden to see if he's okay. i went and he looked like he just woke up. i picked him up and since he's walking now he walked to the living room with me.

"hey buddy. do you want lunch?" i asked
"juice!" he said
"okay let's go." i said smiling at him.

i was making him a cup of juice and my phone started ringing. i let it ring since i was in the middle of doing something. after i handed kaden his juice i facetimed ethan back. i handed the phone to kaden when he answered.

"say hi dad." i told kaden.
"hi!" he said.
"give the phone back to aunt kai." he said
"what's up?"
"have you talked to grayson? he's not picking up?"
"last time i talked to him was this morning." i said
"will you try and call him?" he said
"yeah, i'll call you back." i said.

i hung up and sighed. what's the worst that can happen? i called him four different times and he didn't answer. he ignored one of my calls and sent me to voicemail. i didn't even care anymore. i texted ethan and told him i had no luck with it.

i decided that i was just going to get started on lunch. i made grilled cheese and tomato soup for kaden and i. it was good and kinda helped me take my mind off grayson.
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it's 10 pm kaden is sleeping and i just can't sleep. where's grayson and why is he ignoring my calls? i didn't get a text or anything from him since this morning. i called ethan to see if he found him or heard from him.

"e did you hear from grayson?" i asked
"yeah he's with me right now." he said
"oka-"
"you might not want to talk to him ever again." he said
"why? that's my bo-"
"kai he cheated." there was a long pause. i couldn't comprehend what he just said.
"i'll talk to you in the morning when you pick kaden up." i said.
"o-" i hung up. i didn't want to talk anymore. i called brittany so i could talk to her.

"hello?"
"he cheated! can you come over?" i said sobbing through the phone.
"i'm coming now." she said and hung up.

i felt like shit. i feel like i failed as a girlfriend. i loved him with everything in me and he cheated. i trusted him with my life and he was the one to stab me in my back.

i heard a knock at the door and it was brittany. i opened the door with tears running down my face. she had ice cream and liquor in her hand. i laughed wiping my tears.

"bitch you brought liquor while i'm watching your kid." i said.
"i'll deal with him and ethan in the morning, okay?"
"okay." i broke down and cried on her shoulder.
"can we go inside and eat the icecream now?" she said. i shook my head yes and we headed inside.
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brittany fell asleep so i put the liquor in the fridge. put a blanket on her and walked out on the balcony. i looked at the sky for hours just admiring its beauty. the sun was coming up so i headed inside.

i got a call from grayson and hung up. i didn't want to talk to him right now. i didn't want even face him later, but i had too. as of right now i still live him. i went to the bathroom and looked at myself. i looked so ugly. i felt like no could ever love me.