Dream (Norenmin)

4

When Jeno emerges from his room in his sweats to see Jaemin waiting at the table for him he doesn't know how to feel, this is one of the things he's wanted for a while now but he understands this is pity.
"Good morning." Jaemin says cautiously. Jeno just nods walking up to the fridge. He opens the door and sighs.
"I'm going for a run this morning so you can wrap mine up. Thank you, for breakfast I mean." He only glances his way a moment, not really wanting to see what kind of facial expression he will have, he feels guilty enough.
"Oh y-yeah well sure. I just had time today so I thought w-we could spend some time but yeah that's fine I'll put it away."
Jeno pauses at the door and turns to Jaemin.
"Sorry." He says trying to hold back the tears once again, he then speeds out the door. He's honestly not angry as it would seem, he's hurt even though he has absolutely no right and he knows this, it still hurts so he just can't sit and have normal conversation with him like nothing is going on.
Jeno isn't one to show his emotions often, he's very good at holding it in so for him to let go the way he did last night, it made the flood gates open and now he can't seem to close them.
He runs again until he can't anymore, the tears have dried up and he decides once again to miss classes, he emails his professors and lets them know he isn't well.
By the time their shared class rolls around Jaemin is concerned, he didn't see him after he left this morning and what if something happened to him? He sends a quick text hoping for an equally quick reply.
After asking where he was he actually got a reply right away from the other saying he has a small cold and didn't feel like attending class so Jaemin calls a quick order in to their cafe for chicken soup and tea hoping this will make him feel better and maybe also he will forgive him.

When he got to their shared apartment it was quiet, he could hear Jeno's laptop playing a movie in his room so he quietly knocks. He hears Jeno clear his throat and say come in so he does. The room is dark but Jaemin can still see the puffy eyes and red nose.
"I brought you some soup and tea, and you can copy my notes from class." Jaemin says quickly and sets the stuff on the table. Jeno tried to look in his eyes but it still hurts.
"Thank you." He whispers. He picks up the soup and drinks a spoonful.
"It's good." He says quietly.
"If I had more time I could have made it from scratch but I have to get to my next class." Jeno shakes his head.
"This is just fine, thanks again but you better run if you don't want to be late." Jaemin nods, the weird atmosphere is still bothering him. He says his goodbye and vows in his head to devote the whole night to Jeno's care. He leaves, pleased with his thought and starts planning what to do for him. He wants to have a good time like they used to when they would hang out sick together, it may sound weird but they used to have the ability to make anything fun, even an annoying cold.

When Jeno's last class is finished for the day and Renjun has noticed his absence in all of their shared classes he decides to text him.

Renjun: hey are you ok? I'm sure this is related to last night so if you are ready we should talk.

Jeno: can I call you?

Renjun doesn't reply, just hits the call button.
"Hi." Jeno says softly.
"How are you doing? Did the time off help? I missed you all day you know." Jeno can't help the warm fuzzy feeling in his heart after hearing this.
"Honestly just hearing your voice makes it so much better." Renjun is so glad Jeno can't see his blush.
They spend the next hour just talking about random things and Jeno can feel his mood lifted quite a bit.
"Jeno, I want to tell you something. The other day this guy I really like asked me on a date and I said yes." Jeno is starting to feel that crushing feeling again.
"I told them that I would if only they are ok with the fact that there is someone else I want to go on dates with, because I like him just as much and I can't decide without dating, you know?" Jeno hummed trying to hold back the tears.
"So will you go on a date with me?" Jeno is confused for a minute before it sinks in.
"Wait, you like me?" The happiness in his voice is apparent to everyone, even Jaemin who was just about to knock when he heard Jeno say this. Jaemin of course walks away figuring he deserves this, after all he is going on a date with Renjun tomorrow, so even though it hurts he will have to just get over it.

Renjun giggles at Jeno.
"Of course I like you, a lot actually and I hope that even though you seem to have a broken heart that you could fit me in as well." Jeno sniffles, torn between the two boys he has feelings for. One who is already dating someone else he has loved for as long as he can remember and this new person in his life who brings him joy that he is quickly developing feelings for.
"Yes, I want to date you. I do like you too. My heart is broken and I know you can't fix it, sorry if that sounds bad but, I feel like this other person has had my heart for so long that he will be in there forever but I'm 100% sure you will fit right in." Renjun is just fine with that answer, who is he to dictate how others feel, he is also torn between two guys and he hasn't even known them that long.
They talked for at least another hour before Renjun got sleepy. When Jeno left his room finally to use the bathroom Jaemin was just standing over the garbage can. He smiled at him which made Jaemin happy even though he knows he wasn't the reason, he's smiling again, at least he doesn't hate him.
When Jeno goes to get a glass of water he notices some of their favorite movie candies from when they were kids. He's not sure why they are in the trash but he feels like he probably did something wrong again.
He tries not to dwell on it though because he is going on a date in a couple of days with Renjun and he can't wait.