Dream (Norenmin)

14

Smut ahead!

Jeno bursts through the door hoping to have a chance to clear the air with Jaemin but finds him sitting on the couch cuddling with Renjun already. Renjun's hand goes up to his mouth.
"Oh my god what happened to you?" He runs up and tries to hug Jeno who gently holds him back.
"Sorry I'm kind of sore." He looks at Jaemin who is looking away, obviously trying to hold back tears. He gets up quickly and grabs his sweater.
"I'm glad you're here, I'm going to the store to get some things for lunch." Jeno looks desperately at him.
"Wait, Jaemin why didn't you tell me about him getting hurt? I care about him too you know." Jaemin shakes his head.
"Sorry, it's not my place to talk about his business. I'll be back later."
"Jaemin wait." Jeno tries but the latter just walks out the door after a brief pause.
Jaemin doesn't really have a plan, he just can't be in the same room with Jeno right now. He doesn't know why it hurts so much, he understands people need privacy and telling one person may be easier than others but him and Jeno have told each other everything forever. Yeah Jeno isn't a big sharer but something like this would have been top priority.

Renjun can feel the tension, he knows something happened and he's unsure if he should ask.
"I need a shower, can you stay and help me with my bandages when I'm done?" Renjun nods and gives him a brief kiss on the cheek before sitting on the couch.
When Jeno comes out in just sweat pants Renjun has a hard time breathing. Jeno chuckles and hands him a first aid kit.
"Just get the cuts please, I'll take care of the rest." Renjun nods and starts on his face.
"Is it ok if I ask what happened?" He asks cautiously. Jeno feels worse now. He either hurts Renjun by not telling him anything or he hurts Jaemin more by him being the last to know.
"I'm sorry but I can't yet. Please don't get mad." Renjun sighs.
"Don't worry, I'm not mad. But I think something happened between the two of you." Jeno nods sadly, "I'm an asshole and don't deserve either one of you." Renjun hums.
"You love him don't you?" Jeno chokes on air.
"Don't deny it, I can see it and I know he loves you too." Jeno shakes his head.
"T-that doesn't bother you?" Jeno asks cautiously.
"That depends is there still room for me? If not I would understand even though it would hurt but if there is then that's perfect. I would love it if we could all be free to be with each other. The tension would break and we could just be together all the time and yeah it would make me so happy." Renjun is startled by the fact that just as he finished he felt soft lips on his. It wasn't long, just a quick peck that still made him blush. The fact that Jaemin happened to walk in at that exact moment was a twist that Jeno didn't expect. Jaemin just put the things he bought in the kitchen and stayed there for a while, too afraid to go out.
"What was that for?" Renjun quietly asks.
" sorry, I just...it felt right. I wanted to thank you for saying that. I've been trying so hard to build up my courage to tell him but I just keep hurting him." Renjun pats his still bare shoulder.
"I think you two need to have a talk without me here. Just remember Jeno, you guys are free to love each other in any way you want. You don't need my permission. Of course I want to be with both of you but you guys came first so work it out." Jeno hugs him and walks him out. Now with sweaty palms and an uncontrollable heartbeat he slowly walks to where Jaemin is.
Jaemin is standing by the counter facing the wall trying to control the tears that want to fall. As he wipes each one that rolls down his cheek another falls to take its place.
"Jaem. Look at me." He shakes his head no and chokes on a sob.
"Please?" Jeno pleads with a wobbly voice of his own. Jaemin slowly turns but can't look him in the eye.
"I'm so sorry, for saying what I said this morning, when you were there for me no matter what.
I'm sorry for not being with you yesterday, it was inexcusable. We had plans and I fucked it up.
I'm sorry for being so distant lately.
I'm sorry for for being such a coward and not being able to utter the words... I love you a long time ago." Jaemin finally looks in his eyes, surprised.
"I love you Jaemin and that is why I've been so terrible. I've been jealous, not that you're with Renjun because I love him too but because he got to be with you and I didn't think it was fair because I have loved you since, I can't even remember when, it's been so long. I know it was some time after puberty." They both chuckle.
"How do you think I feel, watching you kiss Renjun? I've always wanted to be your first kiss." Jaemin says sadly. Jeno moves closer and holds him by the waist.
"I wanted that too, and I still do." Jaemin starts to try to protest.
"But that...." He feels Jeno's soft lips press against his own, a lingering sweet kiss that holds all of the pent up emotions that have held them both back. His hands go around Jeno's neck as the kiss deepens.
When they finally break apart Jeno rests his forehead on the other.
"That was my first kiss, what you saw was a thank you peck. For giving me the courage to talk to you and for giving me the blessing to not feel guilty about his feelings. Jaemin I love you so much and I want to be with you. I want to be your boyfriend, would you let me? Even after I've been the biggest dick ever?" Jaemin chuckles, wiping what's left of his remaining tears.
"Of course I want that too. I love you. I was going to tell you.
Last night I talked with Taeyong and he told me to have courage and just do it but then this morning I lost my nerve after you..." Jeno hugged him, interrupting him.
"I'm really sorry for that, I'm just...I didn't want to tell you for a lot of reasons and I think that you deserve to know but maybe just so I don't have to say it twice I'll wait and we can talk with Renjun as well." Jaemin nods satisfied with that answer.
"I'm sorry if I seemed pushy though, I was just worried about you. I mean look what they did to you." He reaches up and touches Jeno's face gently tracing the bruises then gliding his hand down his neck to his chest. Jeno has chills down his spine watching the determined look in Jaemin's eyes. He can feel the tension rising again as Jaemin is freely tracing the outlines of his muscles, his breathing is getting heavier as he feels the gentle tips of his fingers feeling him.
"Jaem." He says heavily before the other looks up at him.
"Is it too soon to ask you to let me be your first lover too?" Jaemin asks boldly while Jeno swallows hard.
Jeno's fingers dig into Jaemin's hips as he moves his face close to the other hovering over his lips whispering a no before crashing his lips to his. Before he knew it Jaemin's back was against the wall before Jeno picks him up and holds him as he walks to find a bed.
"Yours or mine?" He whispers huskily.
"What ever is closest." He says trying to get friction as he's being held in place by Jeno's strong arms, leaning down to kiss his neck as they go.
They make it to Jeno's room, and Jeno lays him down gently kissing his neck softly.
"Are you sure about this?" Jeno asks cautiously.
"First of all I trust you with my life so I should think my virginity is safe with you and secondly, I've been sure about this since I got my first boner." Jeno laughs a genuine laugh and kisses his lips.
"You've always had a way with words, but same." Now Jaemin giggles.
"I'm nervous, I don't want to hurt you." Jaemin smiles softly.
"Have you ever watched gay porn?" Jeno laughs again.
"Of course." He says confidently.
"Have you ever had anything up your ass?" Jeno asks in a mock seductive voice watching Jaemin's smile turn sly.
"A lot of things actually, I can show you later." Jeno smirks.
"Lube?" Jaemin asks and Jeno digs it out of his drawer. He squirts a generous amount onto his fingers and slowly adds two at a time watching Jaemin's face change from one emotion to another. He picks up the pace and jabs them in and out at a fairly fast pace listening to all the little uh uh's that come from Jaemin's sweet lips.
"You're so beautiful, did you know that?" Jaemin giggles.
"You told me last night." Jeno stops, squinting at Jaemin to see if he was telling the truth.
"When I was dressing your wounds, you also said you loved me but you were drunk so..." Jeno laughs again.
"I'm not drunk now. I love you and you're beautiful." Jaemin pulls him down into a steamy kiss as he tries to get his hands on everything Jeno has to offer. He's been waiting his whole life to touch him this way so he feels he needs to do it all tonight.
Jeno senses his sense of urgency and tries to slow him down. He intertwines their fingers and puts them above his head and starts kissing down from his collar bone to his belly button. He slowly let's go and runs his fingers down Jaemin's sides. Then he circles his thumbs on his hips and goes down to his awaiting red throbbing dick to give him the friction he needs. He swirls his tongue around and bobs up and down at a steady pace. Jaemin is about to lose his mind, his hands are pulling Jeno's hair and he's moaning loudly.
"It's so good, don't stop. I'm going to..." he didn't get to finish before shooting down Jeno's throat. Jeno swallows every last drop and now looks hungrily at Jaemin who's riding his high.
"You are so fucking sexy when you do that." Jeno says to a confused Jaemin.
"Do what?" He asks breathless. Jeno crawls up like a hungry lion ready to eat his prey. He lowers himself and bites Jaemin's ear before whispering.
"That face you make when you come. I need to see that again." He almost did just then because the sexy way he was growling in Jaemin's ear already has him wanting more.
"Fuck me now Jen please?" He begs. Jeno takes in his sweaty fucked out body as he raises his legs to gain better access.
"Tell me right away if I hurt you." Jeno says sternly, Jaemin can only nod in response as he readies himself for his love. They look into each other's eyes both asking silent questions to each other, when the only answer needed is right there in their eyes.
Jeno slides in slowly as he groans at how tight the other is.
Jaemin can't stop watching the rippling muscles contracting in Jeno's chest and stomach. Once fully inside Jeno stops to see the beauty lying there fucked out underneath him and he's brought to tears. He loves this person so much and has for so long and it's finally happening. Jaemin notices and reaches up to pull him down into a loving kiss as Jeno slowly, as if memorizing every detail of this night rocks back and forth inside him.
"Fuck! I love you Jaemin. So much." Jaemin now tears up a little.
"I love you. Ohhh..." he's cut off when Jeno hits his bundle of nerves and he's now begging for more.
"Oh my god. Harder. Faster. Fuck so good so good." Jeno grunts and growls like an animal hearing all these things coming from Jaemin's hot mouth. He quickly captures the rest of his moans in his own mouth as he devours Jaemin's lips until they both reach climax.
Jeno collapses on top of Jaemin and holds him close. He rolls over pulling Jaemin on top of him still feeling quite emotional.
"Don't move, just stay here with me for a while." Jaemin relaxes on top of him and they fall into a comfortable silence holding on to the meaning of the moment.