Dream (Norenmin)

21

"What happened?" Jaemin asks completely out of breath and extremely disappointed.
"I don't know, I think I rejected him and he didn't take it well." Renjun says sadly.
"Ok well, that sounds bad but I don't think it's for the reason you are probably assuming. I'm going to talk to him, why don't you clean up." Jaemin says as Renjun slowly gets up silently crying.
After only a minute Jaemin is back.
"He's got the door locked so I'll talk to him later."
They both straighten up the place and not a word is spoken at this point.
"Should I leave? Is he mad?" Jaemin sighs shaking his head.
"Do you really think that way of him? He is your boyfriend right? And all this time you were with him before has he ever indicated that he was going to pressure you?" Jaemin isn't trying to, but he has Renjun feeling really guilty right now.
"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't doubt him right? Like I...." Jaemin pulls him in and hugs him.
"Sorry. You have every right to be confused and even hurt in this situation until you know what's going on, but you can't give up and walk away when things are hard because then there is no point to all of this." Renjun nods into his shoulder.
"I didn't mean to hurt him, I was just wanting to go a little slower and I was nervous." Jaemin strokes the back of his head while shushing him.
"I'm sure he's ok with that, I honestly think this is a bigger thing. He loves you, he would never get upset about that." They crawl into Jaemin's bed to cuddle, waiting for him to get done.
"What's it like?" Renjun asks, his voice small.
"What? Sex?" Jaemin questions while Renjun nods shyly.
"Sex with Jeno is amazing. He's powerful and soft, attentive and above all he puts my needs before his own. As you could tell tonight, he would stop on a dime if asked. Also, it just feels so good. Like I've never been on top if you know what I mean, Jeno doesn't think he's ready for something like that so I'm always on the bottom and I do love it." He giggles a little.
"Do you ever want to top?" Renjun asks quietly.
"With him I've honestly never thought about it, I love the way we are right now, which is still really new to both of us but maybe some day in the future I would want to try it." Renjun hums.
"I'm sorry I wrecked our night. You guys made it so perfect and I destroyed it." Jaemin sighs.
"I honestly don't know what I'm going to do with you two. You didn't ruin anything now let's go see if he's done." They quietly walk to the bathroom which is now empty so they head to Jeno's door. Jaemin taps once before opening it only to see Jeno sitting with his head in his hands facing the other direction. They can hear him sniffling and see his shoulders shaking which makes them both sad. Jaemin gestures to Renjun to follow him but he stays a bit behind for now.
"Jeno, baby what's bothering you?" Jaemin says as he lays Jeno's head onto his shoulder and he holds his side, gently running his fingers up and down.
"I I feel like." He pauses and lets out a little sob.
"In that moment, the look on his face terrified me. It looked how I felt that night, and I don't want to be a monster like they were. I should have asked, we should have discussed it first. I seen that look in his eyes, that same one you get when we make love so I just assumed he was ready and I shouldn't have and I feel like a terrible person." Jaemin has now wrapped both arms around him doing his best to comfort him.
When a sobbing Renjun drops to his knees in front of him, Jeno is surprised. Renjun takes both his hands and starts placing kisses all over them.
"You could never be them. You are not a monster and I never once thought that." He looked at Jaemin who nodded and kisses Jeno's face then Renjun's before leaving to give them some privacy.

"Jeno, you don't scare me, not like that anyway. You always make me feel protected. I was just nervous because it would have been my first time and I wanted to slow down and I didn't communicate that well enough." He lays his head in Jeno's lap while the other is softly running his fingers through it.
"I'm really sorry." He says quietly.
"You have no reason to be, I should have talked with you." Renjun stands up only to crawl onto Jeno's lap.
"Will you stop and let me apologize please? I told you before I wanted to be treated the same as Jaemin and if I didn't want it I would tell you, which I did. I was participating with teasing you in the cab and I participated willingly until I stopped it. You did the right thing and I'm glad but I wish you wouldn't have thought those horrible things. I love you so much and you mean so much to me and I do want that with you, with a couple of guidelines in place of course." He pecks Jeno's nose which makes the latter giggle.
"Oh yeah? What are these guidelines?" He asks smirking.
"You will be slow, and soft. I'm scared it will hurt and it will be my first time. Also I want Jaemin there too." Jeno smiles softly and kisses him.
"Why me? I mean maybe  Jaemin might want to be your first?" Renjun buries his face in Jeno's neck.
"We will see where it goes. I'm open to whatever. I do love you both and if I was capable I would have you both at the same time" Jeno chokes.
"Don't judge me but yeah I looked up porn like that to see what it was like and I don't think I could." Jeno laughs a bit loud breaking their silent little talk.
"I do feel bad though, you and Jaemin planned this special night and because of me it was ruined. Now he's in there all alone probably sad and I made you cry." Jeno flips them over and lays between Renjun's legs and kisses him breathless.
"I love you so much. So so much. I just want you to know that." He kisses him again, this time a bit softer.
"Mm god you're too good at that." Renjun mumbles when Jeno places some soft kisses on his neck.
"Let's go to Jaem. This was his special night too we should be with him, you can cuddle us both tonight." Renjun nods and holds his hands up for Jeno to pick him up.
"You are too fucking cute, you know that?" Renjun hides in Jeno's neck again as they walk into Jaemin's room.
"Jaem? Are you still up?" Jeno asks quietly while placing Renjun on the bed. He immediately crawls over and snuggles into Jaemin's back just as Jaemin tries to roll over.
" yeah, I was getting sleepy but yeah I'm up. Are you ok now? Jeno? Like really ok?" Jeno walks to Jaemin's side of the bed and pulls him up into a big hug.
"Thank you, for being there for me when I'm a wreck. I don't know what I would do without you. I'm sorry I didn't keep my promise and I'm sorry if we ruined this night for you." Jaemin pecks his lips.
"First of all, I can't guarantee you that I won't be getting my promise fulfilled at all tonight. I might have to make it happen myself but it will. But most importantly I want you two to be fine." Jeno smirks and kisses him deeply while Renjun watches in awe at how great they really are together.
Jaemin then turns to Renjun.
"Your turn." He says puckering and of course Renjun fulfills his wish.

To be continued...