One last chance

Chapter 24

[Mbalenhle]
My whole body felt like it had been used for days,i felt emotionally, physically tired ,everything in me didn't have the will to wake up but i knew i couldn't stay for a long time here, immediately at my waking up the grey dull walls welcomed me , they represented my mood exactly, the smell of medication was hard to miss and my arm sting as i tried to move it only then did i realise the drip on my hand, it looked dark outside as i looked over the window,my heart leaped to my throat and i knew it was way past six, the full moon outside told me it was midnight according to my assumption,i took a deep breath ,why was life difficult,was it like this for everyone or was it just mine,i layed awake half the night before i could see the sun kissing the mountains, by the look of it ,it looked like today would be a hot day , it was clear indication how October weather was ,today Lwethu was suppose to go back to school, it was the last term of the year , this was a clear indication how much i was failing as a mother ,this motherhood i was doing a horrible job at it more than i thought i would,i suck in, i knew and the sooner i accepted it the better.

"Good morning Miss Qwabe" the women said walking inside the room wearing blue scrubs followed by Qhawe and my mother, she gave me a smile the similarities between her and Qhawe i could tell they either twins or his father or mother had strong genres

"Morning doctor " i answered she grabbed the clipboard yawning.

"How are you feeling " she asked i shrug my shoulders indicating i don't know also, because honestly i was just numb.

"Just tired" i answered she nodded writing on her clipboard.

"It's normal you had panic attack and dehydration didn't make things easire too that's the reason you lost consciousness ,although the are some concerning issues in this case but we still running few test will let you now as soon as the results are back" she said not taking her eyes away from the clipboard " let me do my rounds before leaving I'll send a nurse to bring you a meal" she said that pushing the file on its original place before leaving me, ma was quick to squeeze me into a hug.

"Enhle never do that again , i don't want to lose you ever again" she says putting me on arms length she smiles wiping my tears " and you'll be happy to hear that the police found Lwethu unharmed she only broke her arm" she says its like she woke something in me.

"Lwethu is alive" i say in disbelief but quick to frown, just like that so easy they found her but nonetheless i was happy, my heart leaped on my throat as she told me she was in this hospital, like a mad women i ripped the drip off my hand walking my shaking legs, i found her laying on the bed besides her was a nurse feeding her.

"Ouch ma "She flinched as i squeezed her into a hug , i pushed my body away from her putting her on arms length evaluation any scratches she might have instead the was nothing, just her arm that now had a slit.

"Am fine mama" she said i felt the tears rolling down and i quickly wiped it, i cant even imagine the thought of having to live without her, the thought of just having to spend another day not knowing where she was ,was horrible.

"Am sorry" i said the were many things i was apologetic about and i hoped that she understood what i meant, i took the food from the nurse and fed her, this took me back to when she was young, the last time i fed her was a day before i gotten arrested she was 4 years old then, i couldn't let her leave my side now, i knew i was paranoid but i couldn't, the detective when he came ma excused herself and left.

"Thanks to you Miss Qwabe  Mongezi is behind the bars and some of his patners too , your contribution helped a lot in this situation, we had undercover detectives following him and we collected a lot of evidence" he said with a smile although i wanted to be happy, i wanted to be excited for getting rid of Mo on our life i didn't bring my hopes up we were talking about Mo here.

"What now " i asked

"Prosecution and you as our main witness we have a strong case at this moment, i wanted to personally deliver the news" he answered before excusing himself, leaving me with Qhawe , Lwethu was asleep.

"Can we talk" he said i glanced at Lwethu before following him behind we stood right out of the door. "When will we inform Lwethu of the current discoveries" he asked i took a deep breath.

"Can we wait a little longer Lwethu has been through a lot and this is a lot to take in too" i answered he folded his arms.

"Postponing things won't help Mbalenhle at the end of the day i want to build a relationship with my daughter " he said calmly i dropped on the benches "i know you have Lwethu's best in interest but do you think what you saying is fair on me" he asked "plus i want to file for custody sooner" i raised my head quickly to look at him.

"What" i raised my head looking at him, he couldn't do this to me not now nor ever, Lwethu was mine.

"No not Sole custody it wouldn't be fair on you ,i want shared custody" he answered seeing my face yet his words didn't make me feel easy.

"I wouldn't keep you away from your daughter" i answered he nodded his head in understanding .

"I understand that fully but as a lawyer am comfortable with a contract , i wouldn't want you feeling like you have more rights concerning Lwethu more than me" i silently fumed at his words what did he mean that he was the upper parent than i was. "am sorry if i put them in a wrong way"