One last chance

Chapter 31

[Mbalenhle]
"Thank you for what you did back then,i don't know what would have happen had you not arrived"i said to Qhawe who nodded his head slowly "i should go" i said turning to walk away , but remembered as i turned to talk we both talked at the same time.

"Am sorry you go first"he said

"Earlier today we received a letter" i said making sure he understands what i mean,he nodded his head.

"Yeah i want to do things the rightful way and Lwethu traditional being introduced to her rightful ancestors " he said " can i take you out this evening " he bluntly said.

"You mean as friends " i said making sure that i don't get the wrong idea or anything, he shook his head.

"I mean on a date ,date"  he said my heart leaped on my throat i opened my mouth to talk but words failed me, my heart beat increased " i mean if you want to ,but if you don't I'll totally understand and..." he rubbed his fade.

"It's cool" i shrugged my shoulders he nodded his head." But i don't have anything to dress for a date"i said

"How about 7 I'll just cook and we can stay indoors " i nodded at him in indication 7 was great , he got in his car and drove away leaving me standing there,in the middle of the road, not far from me the were kids playing skipping rope, the streets had never been empty and as always the place was packed, Bra Soli's tarven was full of people drunk already yet it was in the middle of the week, and the nyaope boys were as usual at the spaza shop asking for R2 to everyone ,even though sometimes i wished i could move from this neighborhood but this neighborhood raised me , the saying 'it takes a village to raise a child' thats exactly the thing in this place , no matter how things are in this place , we all know each other advantages and disadvantages of staying here, i heave a loud sigh wondering will i ever leave this place ,as much as am eager to make everyone proud i just wonder, I've always been struggling to get a job now and the business idea is a good thing but then what happens when everything failes ,but i know i have to put my degree to use, finally i moved away going back to the house i found Sindiswa crying and Ma sitting opposite her,i knew she was getting some earful i decided to excuse them, the time was few minutes past 5 ,my short hair was growing now , i missed my dreadlocks but now short hair was the new me, i had to cut it yet again, my eyes fell on the business plan on the bed , hopefully everything goes exactly as i want ,i had a meeting with the nyda the following week if it didn't work out i had to go with the business loan idea.

" Mom can i ask" Lwethu said walking to the room,she sat on the bed i nodded my head at her wanting for her to go on.

"Are you and bhut'Qhawe a thing" she asked i chooked on my saliva i didn't expect that question at all "i mean you my parents so..." she shrugged.

"Not exactly baby we just your parents but that doesn't force us to be together, you might even have already a stepmother who knows" i shrugged my shoulders.

"Stepmothers are not exactly nice"she said i shook my head in disagreement.

"Not every stepmother is evil, anyway did you enjoy your outing with Qhawe"i asked she nodded her head.

" it was fun until his brothers and sisters came apparently they all twins , i was nervous that they will hate me but they just like bhut'Qhawe they cool, aunt'Nqobile is the coolest though and she is married to another women , malume Manqoba is a little bit serious though am scared of him " she said excited the excitement was written all over her face my heart swelled in happening, i could feel my tears stinging my eyelids, Lwethu was my happiness.
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"Hey" i said as i approached him, he gave me a smile as he opened the door "thank you" i said as i settled in on his leather seats , as usual his car was clean and his cologne smelled great, i was in simple jeans and comfortable sneakers , i didn't like dresses because i was getting back to my weight,i hated it , I've suffered my whole childhood life because of my chubbyness if thats a word and i was okay with my thin self now , now i was regaining that weight.

"How are you" he asked snapping me out of my somber mood ,he started driving.

"Am great and you" i asked before he answered too,he put on some music as comfortable silence feel upon us, we just made small talks there and there, about an hour later we arrived at his place ,it wasn't exactly a big place but comfortable and clean too,he lived in Kempton park that was so far from Alex.

"Nice place" i said as i walked inside,it was more of an apartment than a house.

"Thanks ,am thinking of buying a house because now i lived in an apartment to avoid loneliness and we decide me and my brother to rent an apartment but now Lwethu is here and am thinking when she sleeps over sometimes this won't do "he said leading me to the romantic set up. "would you like something to drink" he asked.

"Juice is okay" i responded he nodded as he pour me juice and did the same as we engulfed in meaningless topic ,the conversation was freely flowing ,Qhawe was indeed an easy person to talk to.

"So what are your plans for the future am sure you don't want being a receptionist all your life ,no offense " he said.

"Non taken ,you right though recently I've been thinking of starting my own business, I've been brainstorming a little and i came up with two things that i thing i would enjoy, marketing and events company, i did my research and the is a lot of competition with events and little in Marketing but the money is more in events more than marketing although i love a little challenge but marketing seems to be more challenging than i can handle and more than events, am sorry for too much yapping" i said realising i was talking to much.

"Its okay i don't mind and it's good that you did your research,i feel like the most challenging things are the more worth it things, i beg to differ on the money, marketing has more money if you more open to other options not just social media but billboards i know they costy and everything but the more companies who are in need of marketing companies they more important it has more business"he said.

"I'll do more research i just wish i had someone to interview atleast"i said.

"You have a boss who owns a whole hotel,the same hotel that needs some marketing to draw in some customers or you can turn two different things and do both of them marketing and events" he said "and if you need any investments i am more than happy to help there"

"You don't have to do favours for me just because am your baby mama" i said he chuckled the food we had was now abandoned.

"One even if i was doing favours for you they will be because they beneficial to my child, two am not doing you any favours am seeing a business deal that's the whole reason why in the first place i am a silent patner in many places a good business man grabs the deal when he sees one" he said with a smirk. "And maybe seeing you starting from scratch too will motivate me to finally start my own firm"

"Let me put your suggestion to the maybe list, am thinking of nyda for now and if that fails a business loan from the bank and if both fail then can i consider" i asked he nodded his head not taking his eyes of me , i swallowed hard as his hands wrap on my face and he pulled me closer, i didn't object until i felt his lips lock with mine, the kiss was enjoyable for few moments until everything just hit me like a ton of bricks, all my nighmares replayed on my mind,the smell , the groans i could yet again see everything like it happened yesterday.

"Am sorry , Enhle...I...I..." he failed to utter words i wiped the tears that were now falling from my eyes i had just to ruin the moment.

"No am sorry" i said he sigh loudly "the other day you mention having feelings for me" i said "why me"i asked curious.

"You beautiful,smart,introvert and a very dedicated person that's what is special about you, like your name uyimbali enhle ,futhi ekhethekile , i would love to explore more life with you in it" he said making my heart slam into my chest.

"You don't want me am ruined goods, am messed up i come with lot of buggage" i said that looking at him.

"And i don't care we all have buggage in life"he said "i have my own buggage that is more worse and would  scare you should you find out" he said.

"Can i tell you everything before anything " i said closing my eyes, this was it, i was giving someone my buggage.