Wednesday, November 4, 2020
12:20pm
hey just wanted to say this will mostly like be the last part to this 5! Part imagine lmao
(Guys I do not know how giving birth to a baby feels like, so uh yeah forgive me lmao)
I've been in the hospital for about 3 hours now. My water had broke about an hour ago, and I've been having bad contractions and cramps since last night.
It's been three days since my last encounter with Grayson, since that day they came over to my apartment.
After he broke down in front of me, he took an Uber back to his and Ethan's place. I kept asking about Gray to Ethan. I was so worried.
Ethan kept telling me he was fine or that he would be fine.
But here I am about to give labor still worried about Gray.
"Hey,"
"Don't overthink." He grabbed my hand, intertwining them together, rubbing circles on the back of my hand to.
"Sorry," I smiled at Ethan. "I care for him a lot, I don't want him to keep being sad because of me. You know?"
"Yeah, I know." Me and Ethan aren't together and we don't mess around, anymore. The last time anything happened between us was when I was in Jersey. The time we got caught.
Things changed between us. We're like best friends again. Like how it was in the beginning of mines and Gray's relationship. Sometimes, things still feel off but it is what it is.
"I wanted it to be like a surprise? I don't know." Ethan rubbed the back of his, "But Gray is on his way."
"Really?" I asked squeezing his hand.
"Yeah. I know how much it would mean to you if he was here. He was suppose to be here, not me." Ethan looked down sadly.
"But you are here, Ethan." I smiled through my glossy eyes. For two reasons, these damn contractions for ruining shit with both Ethan and Grayson. I made it so hard for Gray to trust any other female again, his own brother.
I'm a piece of shit, I know that.
I squeezed Ethans hand, the pain taking over my whole body. Squeezing me eyes shut.
"Fuck me!" My mom was right about giving birth. This shit hurts like a bitch.
Trying to calm my breathing, feeling the lose contact of Ethans hand from mines. Feeling another in mines.
I knew exactly who it was.
I didn't open my eyes just yet. The pain was to much to at the moment.
After maybe two minutes of going there excruciating pain. Opened my watery eyes, looking to the side of me seeing Grayson.
He smiled at me. Showing off his dimples. He's so beautiful I thought to myself.
I smiled back at him, "I'm glad you came."
