Sunday, December 20, 2020
9:44 pm
"do you know how to roll ?"
"I told you it's been a while ." I raised my eyebrows and laughed . "so no, i don't ."
Emma rolled the second blunt for me .
"Are you sure you want to ?" She handed me the blunt .
"Yes, I am . Ethan doesn't make my decisions, anymore ." I took the blunt from her .
Me and Ethan got into a huge fight . He ended up breaking my phone, I ended up slapping him . Things are all bad right now .
"What even happened ?" Hazel spoke . She's a close friend of mines and Emma's .
"All because I stuck up for there friend Ryan . Him and Grayson were falsely accusing him for hella shit that he didn't do, Ethan got mad cause he said I was defending Ryan . He told me to go fuck Ryan since I wanna defend him . He told me so much messed up shit. I thought Grayson was gonna defend me, but no ."
I felt like crying . "There twins, of course there gonna take each other's sides ."
"How the hell did you get here without your phone ? That's like your whole life ."
I laughed off the pain, "I used Ryan's phone to order me an Uber here ."
"Ethan also tripped about that ."
I held one end of the blunt in my mouth, Hazel lighting the other end .
"Damn ."
"That was a fat hit ." Emma laughed out loud . She was smoking before I came, so she is baked .
"Does he know your here ?" Hazel took a hit out of her wax pen .
I blew out the smoke, "I think so . I didn't tell him, but he knows me to well ." I took another hit .
"Fuck ," Emma start coughing so hard making me and Hazel laugh with her . "Stop, it hurts when I laugh !"
Emma's phone start ringing, it was labeled under 'puto' lol wonder who that is .
"Answer it ." She was still coughing .
"Hellooo ?"
"Y/n ! Where the hell are you ?!"
Oh my goodness I thought to myself .
"Babe, you seriously need to chill ." I laughed .
"Are you drunk ?"
"I'm not drunk, I am hi-
I immediately stopped myself . Slapping a hand over my mouth . What the hell is my problem.
I looked at Hazel and Emma and they were smoking still, while listening .
"What the fuck y/n !"
"Yeah, what the fuck . I do not wanna deal with this bullshit . I left to get away from you, and now you go ahead and call Emma trying to get to me ."
I stood up walking to the kitchen, "shit."
"Sorry i almost feel." I laughed, him hearing Hazel laughing in the background .
"Why even call, Ethan ? You don't want anything to do with me , remember that !" I cried and screamed into the phone .
Jesus, my moods are changing so fast I thought .
"Baby, listen I'm sor-
I hung up the phone .
"Asshole ." I threw Emma back her phone .
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"I can say the night, right ?"
"Yeah of course,"
Emma stared at me, eyes halfway opened . "I was gonna say something, I forgot ." She start laughing .
I smiled at her, a forced one .
I couldn't stop thinking about Ethan . I tried so hard . I thought being high would make me forget for a little bit, I guess it just helped numb the pain .
It's been literally, only 20 minutes since I hung up on him, since I last talked to him . I kinda regret it, but it's whatever . He made me feel like shit . He really did hurt my feelings .
I heard voices booming through my ears, me thinking it was just Emma and Hazel, I ignore them .
I am high as a kite right now . I couldn't even balance my fat ass head on my shoulders . I sat against Emma's bedroom wall, on the floor . It was somewhat comfortable for me .
"Babe !" Ethan startled me awake .
I tried rolling my eyes but they were already closed . I felt Ethan picking me up, helping me stand with him .
"No , no, no !" I tried getting out of his grasp . "Let me go Ethan ! Please, I don't wanna go with you !"
"Yes you are ! There is no way in hell im gonna let you stay here and fuck up your life ." He continued to pull me .
"But they don't make me feel bad ," I begin to cry again . "You do ! There my friends and they care about me ."
"Friends don't give each other drugs y/n !"
I only cried harder .
Ethan came to a stop . "There's a reason why me and Grayson cut you off ."
"What ?" Emma laughed . "Because i smoke ?"
"Your a bad influence, look at you ."
"You know she doesn't smoke and insisted on giving her drugs . I can put your ass in jail, Emma ."
"But i won't . She cares about you to much ."
The room grew silent .
Ethan readjust me on him, throwing me over his shoulder . I didn't fight back or anything this time, I was way to tired .
Ethan carried me all the way to the car, guessing Grayson came with him because the car was already there and ready to go .
"Im so sorry babe ,"
"I really am ."
He reached over and tried kissing my cheek, almost immediately i turned my head the opposite way, letting the tears fall .
