Monday, December 21, 2020
10:42 pm
"Your so handsome bebé ." I lifted my baby to my eye level, kissing him on the cheek .
"Yes, he is ." Ethan came up being me and kissed my cheek .
It's been two months since i gave birth to our baby Hayden .
"I love you, so much ."
I smiled, "I love you too, E ."
so, you might be thinking, what the hell is going on ? well, me and Ethan are hooking up, again, with protection this time .
I know, kinda hoeish, but it just happened, again .
Grayson doesn't know, obviously . He just start getting use to talking to me again, i don't wanna mess things up, again, again . I know it's wrong but I just can't help myself .
"Can i take him this weekend ?"
Two weeks after the hospital is when me and Ethan had sex, for the first time in a while . I mean he's always over here, for the baby usually, I don't like going over his and Grayson's house . I feel to guilty . but on some weekends he does take Hayden over there .
"Of course ."
"I was thinking ," he sat down on my bed with Hayden, who was playing with his necklace . "Since it's the baby's first Christmas, I wanted us all to decorate the tree at my h-
"Ethan, I can't ." I reached forward and grabbed the baby from his arms .
"y/n, think about the baby. This is his first Christmas, I want both of us to be there . Both of his parents ."
I walked to the window, keeping our baby close in my grasp . "No."
I heard Ethan's foot steps coming closer behind me . "Please, just think about it ?" He kissed my shoulder . My eyes begun to water .
"Ethan," i turned around to him, "I can't face Grayson . You know much of a fucked up person I am ? I am still fucking my ex's brother, behind his back, again ."
"I haven't seen him in a month, since we've been fucking . I feel to guilty ." By this point I was crying already .
Hayden began to cry, hard in my arms . Ethan took him, walking over to his crib and laying him down, giving him his binky .
I slowly walked over to him, he turned around and he pulled into a well needed hug . Holding my head, mumbling sweet words in my ear .
"We can stop ."
I painfully laughed, looking up at him, with my still glossy eyes . "Even if we tried, we couldn't . We've already tried."
He played with my wavy curls on my shoulder . "Well, now I understand . Sorry if I was pushing you to come over so much . You don't have to, but I am gonna take Hayden this weekend. My mom wants to see him again ."
*ring ring*
I seen the name that flashes Ethan's phone screen .
He answered it and put him on speaker .
I walked over to Hayden, inside of his crib . He was out like a light . I smiled looking down at the creation me and Ethan made .
"Hey, moms here asking about you ." "When are you coming ?" Grayson said .
"I'll be there in like 30 minutes, I came to see the baby , I still have to pick up the pizza ." Ethan spoke in the phone .
"Oh okay, is she coming ?"
I looked up from the baby at the wall . Awee, he asks about me ?
"Um, no she isn't. but on the weekend I'm bringing Hayden so mom gets to see him to ."
Before Gray could say something back, Ethan took him off of speaker . Good . I probably would've cried if her asked about me again .
After exchanging a few more words with Grayson, Ethan hung up the phone .
"So, I was suppose to come tonight ?" I smiled folding the babies blanket . "Well, i was gonna ask, but I uh, already figured what your answer would be ."
"Yeah..." I trailed off .
"Well," he walked over to me, turning me around by my shoulders . "I have to go, moms gonna be there and Cameron, and Kyle . We're gonna have pizza, we're gonna have a good time . Would've been better with you there and the baby ." He looked back at the crib and smiled .
"Hey," Ethan looked back at me before walking out . "I'll think about it ."
A big smile took over his face, walking towards me and giving me so much kisses, making me laugh . Until he finally left a long kiss on my lips .
authors note: Please answer guys lol, should I turn this into a book because im seriously thinking about it ??
