Shattered Reflections (One Direction FanFiction) COMPLETED

16.25- Back to December

This might seem like a chapter... BUT IT'S NOT! you know in the previous chapter, Olivia sang a bunch of songs, I'd like to take the time to write the lyrics, share the song, as well as the meaning!

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Back to December

I'm so glad you made time to see me.

How's life? Tell me how's your family.

I haven't seen them in a while.

You've been good, busier than ever,

We small talk, work and the weather,

Your guard is up and I know why.

Because the last time you saw me

Is still burned in the back of your mind.

You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride,

Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night,"

And I go back to December all the time.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.

I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping,

Staying up, playing back myself leavin'.

When your birthday passed and I didn't call.

And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,

I watched you laughing from the passenger side.

Realized that I loved you in the fall.

And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind

You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye".

So this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."

And I go back to December all the time.

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,

Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile,

So good to me, so right

And how you held me in your arms that September night --

The first time you ever saw me cry.

Maybe this is wishful thinking,

Probably mindless dreaming,

But if we loved again, I swear I'd love you right.

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.

So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride

Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night."

And I go back to December...

It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,

Wishing I'd realize what I had when you were mine.

I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.

I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I go back to December all the time.

All the time.

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Great, so now that we have the lyrics out of the way, let's get deep.   

This song, was written by Olivia during the period of time of when she was upset over the breakup with Zach. (ex bf)
I don't know how many of you remember, but she caught Zach and Cara (ex bff) in bed together.  

So, In this song, she is wishing she had never shown up at his door, and never had seen them together. Wishing she hadn't freaked out instead of talking to them...  

The way Zach loved her, was beautiful... but will she find love again? Or is she still afraid of heart-break?    Updating... Monday Night?   Stay Beautiful, Look at the Sidebar.... I uploaded a link of the song. xoxo maya