Wei Ying's destroyed heart (Complete) Edited

25: An old home has new residents

Lan Zhan was peppering kisses down Wei Ying's neck then slowly moved down to his chest, but as he was busy tasting his lovers' skin and teasing him lightly with his tongue and teeth, he felt his breath locked in his chest when his fingers touched the first over exposed rib. It actually felt like someone had just found a skeleton and placed skin over it. This rocketed him back into utter self control.

However, just when Wei Ying had turned form the negative voice and things were getting really interesting, he suddenly felt Lan Zhan pulled back with tears in his eyes as he looked at his chest. 'What ...' his heart twisted .... Why can't he just forget the anxiety of what might happen?

'No ... I will not go further until you are healthy.' He kissed his love gently.

Wei Ying suddenly felt like hitting the back of Lan Zhan's head in frustration ...... so he did. 'Zhan, you do this much and then ...'

'Wei Ying, you have been throwing up blood for years and you are almost wasted away.' He trailed his fingers along one of his ribs. 'I can even count your ribs even without touching, your cheeks are so ... no wonder you never removed the mask. I will keep watch over you until you are back to being your loud, cheeky, beautiful self again. Back to your normal weight and all.' He slowly closed his robes so temptation ... and heartache was out of sight. 'I want to share your rooms with you even before we get married.'

'This is your room; you have lived here for ...'

'XiChen placed you in that house because it was our mothers' home where she was isolated. I want to share that home with you and just be with you.'

'Wait, is that the accommodation we were in after Jin Ling stabbed me?'

'Yes?'

'I didn't even realise it ... your brother told me about your parents when you went to talk to your uncle that time.'

'I can't believe he told anyone about that.'

'Lan Zhan ... before she left, your mother ... she would come and find me now and then ... aside from the things she told me .... She really did love the pair of you.'

'You ... spoke to .....'

'Her ghost. She is gone now.' For a few minutes, Lan Zhan held him close just breathing. 'XiChen told me at that time about how you would keep turning up there once a month even after she died. I sent her on ... I'm sorry.'

'No, don't apologise. I'm glad she is now resting in peace.'

Wei Ying looked into Lan Zhan's eyes and yet again saw a look shining that he had seen for years .... Before his life fell apart ..... Now he knew what it was. That look was a look of devotion. With a deep sigh he spoke. 'If your family agree ... I will marry you.' He wondered if it would be fair for him to do this as his feelings were still .... It was like a pure white piece of paper but the edges were ratty and a single black stain in the middle spoiled it. That is what his heart felt like now, but at the same time, he still wanted Lan Zhan. How do you balance those and still come out on the other side whole. He frowned as he looked over at the door. 'I should get ready soon to go to the arena.' He went to sit up but felt himself held down.

'No, I think my brother and all your students will agree to wait until you have healed first, before continuing the lessons.'

'I will agree but only under one condition.'

'What is that?'

'Someone sends them a message that they all must run the drills twice a day, morning and evening, each time they run them through four sets at half speed and four sets at full speed. SiZhui is to be in charge of that while I am not able to be there, Jin Ling will be his second.'

'What drill?'

'I am teaching them to move the way I move, like a blade of grass. Not like they have been taught, like a tree branch.'

'Tell me the differences.'

'A tree branch, under pressure will break and fall. A blade of grass just goes with the gale then stands back up. Maybe you can go and see them once. I hope you agree with the way I have been teaching them ... I'm still able to teach later right?'

'Yes. I know that both Uncle and brother are happy with your teaching style. In fact they have both asked your students if they want to be Changed to a different teacher and each and every single one refused. SiZhui and JingYi as well as Jin Ling have all come to me worried about you ... they really want the other you back, but with what was done to you ...'

'That would be really nice ... to be able to be myself again ... I will try ...'

Suddenly there was a gentle knock on the door, they both sighed and looked at the door. 'Brother, may I enter?'

'Yes.' He said after covering his love almost up to the neck with the blanket, he realised he didn't even want his own brother looking at Wei Ying.

After walking in and seeing his baby brother still in bed with his arms protectively around Wei Ying, he smiled even as he felt his cheeks heat up faintly. 'I am really sorry for interrupting but .... Wen Ning has arrived at the gates asking about Wei Ying.' He watched as Wei Ying tried to sit up but his brother again held him down with an aura of possessiveness radiating off of him. 'Brother, Wen Ning is truly worried as until this morning, he has not been able to even feel him with the resentful energy. Something he has been able to do since he woke up as he is. He will also tell you where he has been all these years.' Okay, he was just guessing at the last part as he knew the only reason Wen Ning would not be with Wei Ying through all of that time alone was if he was doing something else incredibly important. 'Brother, Wen Ning is the last of Wei Ying's family ... they need to see each other and I personally guarantee that they do not have these feelings for each other.'

'It's true ... I swear .... I have never wanted to kiss that man.' He couldn't help the rough laugh as Lan Zhan's face showed a small amount of peace rise in those golden eyes when he laughed.

'I will take you there ... but it can't be for too long, you need to rest.' He looked to his brother as he rose form the bed only to lift Wei Ying into his arms. 'By the way XiChen, even if no one agrees, Wei Ying and I will marry before the ancestors, dressed in red.'

'Lan Zhan ... do you think you might want to ask first ... maybe ease your family into this whole idea of two men together?' Wei Ying thought he might think for a moment before agreeing but ...

'No.'

Lan Zhan had given him such a serious look he had to chuckle lightly with his face hidden in the man's neck.

Even if his heart was feeling some form of happiness at the moment, he knew he had a long way to go before he could forgive but his heart would never forget the pain or time alone.