Sorry in advance if this chapter is dramatic 😂
Y/n Pov
I sat in the library along with my incredible boyfriend Dean, and along with Sam, Cas, and Jack. We're researching for a case that we literally know nothing about. It's probably one of the hardest that I've worked on in the last year. The look of frustration on Sam's face is how I'm feeling right now.
Suddenly I felt eyes burning into me and looked over to see Cas looking at me. Once he noticed that I caught him he immediately looked away. I shrugged it off and went back to my computer. "Okay I'm getting hungry so I'm gonna go to that diner down the street for burgers. Who's going?" Dean asked, closing his computer.
"I will, as long as it gets me away from this anxiety," I said and he chuckled. Since I agreed to go everyone else did too. We all then decided it's time for a break and went to get some dinner. The car ride there was anything but silent thanks to Dean and his great taste in music.
As soon as arriving we found a booth and sat down. Of course Dean wanted to sit next to me so he could wrap his arm around me and hold me close to him. He left a soft kiss on my cheek just as the waitress arrived at our table. She took our orders before leaving to inform the chef.
"It feels good to relax," Jack pointed out. I nodded agreeing with him. I glanced over at Cas to find him looking at me again and wondered what he's thinking about. "I wanted to let you guys know that y/n and I won't be able to go on that hunt tomorrow," Dean began talking to Sam with an excited smile.
"Why not?" Sam frowned.
"Because tomorrow is our five year anniversary and I have something special planned for us." He smirked over at me before placing a kiss on my head. Suddenly Cas stood from his seat and left the diner without a word. Confusion filled all our faces.
"I'll go check on him." I told everyone before getting up and rushing outside to see if he's okay. What's wrong with him? He's been acting kind of strange today and hasn't said more than two words to me. I found him standing next to the impala and went over to him. He didn't bother to look at me and instead kept his eyes on the cars that passed by.
"You okay?" I asked him worriedly. After a moment of silence he sighed and looked over at me. The amount of sadness in his eyes made me feel hurt for him. He seems genuinely upset about something.
"No y/n I'm not okay. I've been trying to avoid this conversation with you for months. But some part of me knew it was going to happen," he began which confused me. "I've fallen in love with you." He said causing my eyes to widen.
"What?" I got out barely above a whisper.
"I'm an angel, a celestial being and I never had feelings like this before. I've never been in love with anyone in my lifetime let alone a human. But there's something about you that made me feel otherwise. And I know your with Dean and I respect that." He told me all these things that I'm trying to process.
"The only reason I've never said anything is because I care about you and Dean too much to ruin what you have." He looked away from me again and back at the road. Once my mind wrapped around everything he just told me I took a deep breath and stared at the angel in front of me.
I love and care about Cas too but not in the way he wants me too. I'm in love with Dean and that will never change. I feel bad for Cas and want to let him down in the easiest way I can. Even though rejection sucks and is extremely hard to handle for a lot of people.
"Listen Cas I love you but I'm with Dean. I'm so sorry things aren't different but I'm optimistic that one day you'll find the girl your looking for. It just takes time. I mean it took me what felt like forever just for Dean to-" I started telling him only to be cut off by his lips on mine.
Instead of kissing him back I pushed him away but it was too late. Dean saw everything. Well he saw enough to make it look like I cheated. "What the hell!" I hear Dean yell. My head whipped around to find my boyfriend looking at me angrily.
"Dean it's not what you think! I-" I started but he cut me off.
"It's exactly what I think. Your cheating on me with my best friend!" The anger on his face is something I've never seen before. But over top of all of that I saw the glimpse of brokenness he's trying to cover up.
"Dean y/n didn't do anything wrong. I kissed her and I'm sorry. I've had feelings for her for a while and I...I'm sorry." Cas defended me. Dean couldn't process anything that was going on so he got into the car and left. He left us standing there in complete distraught.
How am I going to fix this between us? Did I just lose my entire world?
