𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐒𝐄𝐋🎠 | Travis Scott.

𝙚𝙞𝙜𝙝𝙩𝙚𝙚𝙣 🎠

chapter eighteen:
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October 20th, 2012.
After a short nap.
Kelsey

"To be completely honest..." I said while stiffing my eyes due to a sour candy that I had put in my mouth. I faced Jack for a second and he looked at me weirdly before bursting into laughter.

"Why you look at me like that?" I lifted my head off his chest to look at him.

"How do you expect me to look at you when you're looking at me like that." He made fun of me and I softly slapped him.

"Ouchhh." He fake whined and I rolled my eyes.

"Yeah, like that hurt you." I rolled them once again and he laughed.

"Back to what I was saying.." I was about to continue talking but his laugh kept on being louder and louder, from seeing something on his phone, which made me annoyed for some reason.

"Gosh, I'm sorry. Continue, please." He wiped one eye of his and waited for me to speak.

"So I—"
"I'm so sorry, shit." He said between laughs and I kissed my teeth in annoyance. Why can't he just listen to me, it ain't that hard. I wanted to talk to him about something kind of important but he just couldn't listen. Call me a drama queen, but I hate when people do that. When you're talking with someone, you don't pull out your phone. It's somehow rude, I think.

"Nah, it's nothing." I fought him so I could get out of his grip but I failed.

"Kells, come o—" His phone rang so it was easier for me to get off him.

"Chase? Why you calling me bruh? We're literally in the same ass house." He laughed and I rolled my eyes for the third time and walked to the bathroom, closing the door behind me and locking it.

"Ugh.." I looked at my tired reflection on the mirror and sighed loudly.

Lately, many things have been stressing me out and I don't know how to keep myself steady and not lose my mind.

Thank God, my modeling career goes very well. I'm doing many shoots per week and have covered a few small magazines; we all start from somewhere.

But something is holding me back, one day I feel really unmotivated and a few hours after I may feel like I want to do the impossible.

I get it, it's completely okay to feel like this; all people do. But the thing that sits wrong with me is that I don't know when my mood is going to change. Like, I can change and be a complete different person in just a couple hours. And I don't like that. I want to be able to control my emotions.

"Kells?" Jacques knocked softly on the door and I unlocked it, after I splashed some cold water on my face.

"Kells, I'm so sorry for not paying attention to you." Jack opened his big arms and went for a hug. I hugged him back and pulled away quickly so I could throw some more water on my face.
It was happening again; I couldn't control how I felt at that moment, I felt trapped.

"Kells? You okay?" Jack worriedly asked me.

"I don't know.." I placed my palm on my forehead to check it's temperature, it was hot.

"My head is spinnin—" Before I could finish the sentence, Jacques' big hands cupped my scalp, brining me closer while pecking on my forehead two times.

"Let's get you on the bed." He whispered and when he was about to carry me everything turned black; I passed out.

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"K, Kells, Kelsey!" I opened my eyes and the first thing I saw was Scarlett's face in front of mines.

"You finally woke up! How do you feel?" She rubbed my shoulder with her fingers.

"My head hurts a little." I readjusted myself under the covers and closed my eyes.

"I will make you something to drink and eat, alright?" She asked me and I nodded.
"You don't know how scared I was, Kells. Talk to me if something's wrong. I will be back shortly." She kissed my forehead and made her way to the door.

I sighed, "Scar.."
"What's up?"

"Can you sit for a second? I wanna ask you something." I tapped on the bed and she furrowed her brows before sitting down with me.

"What is it?"

"Do you ever feel trapped?" I quickly shot the question.
"Um—"
I interrupted her, "like your emotions are getting the best of you, like you can't control them."

"Damn, couple times. Why? You been having those?"

"Actually, yeah. I got so stressed all of a sudden and maybe that's why I passed out." I honestly said and she looked at me with a saddened frown.

"Gosh, I hate seeing you like this." We hugged and the door opened.

"Scar!" Chase and Jack entered the room and a weird smell filled the room.

"Guys, I told you not to try to cook!" She panicked and sighed loudly.

"I'm not done with you, we will have this conversation later. And you! Little rats you better not have burned the whole kitchen down!" She shouted and I couldn't help but laugh a little.
"I feel like a single mother right now, fuck my life!" She ran out of my room to check on the kitchen and the boys stayed with me.

"How you feeling?" Chase asked me and I shrugged.

"I don't know but I definitely feel better." I explained and he nodded.

"Good. But your mom needs to know about this." He informed me and my eyes widened.

"Nope, she doesn't have to. I don't want to worry her, she's working really hard for her campaign right now."

"Kells, he's right. What if it is something serious?" Jacques said and I looked down.

"Fine. But I will be the one to tell her." I looked at both of them and they nodded.

"Deal." Chase left the room and now it was Jacques and I.

"For real though, how are you feeling?" He made himself comfortable on the bed and paid attention to my hand, drawing circles on it.

"I'm okay, Ja. The problem is that I don't know if that's going to change in a few minutes or not." I admitted and he turned his head to look at me, his expression full of worry.

He furrowed his brows, "Wha—, what you mean?" I let out a breath, "I find difficulty with controlling my emotions." I shrugged and wiped a tear that was threatening to fall. It was happening again.

"Shit, Kells. How long have this been going on?" His hands were now holding my left palm and I sniffed.

"Can't remember but it's kind of recent. I don't know what to do. I'm an emotional wreck, Jack." I was quietly sobbing and he pulled me into a bear hug.

"Shh, don't talk like that about yourself." His hand cupped my scalp, caressing my hair.

"But it's true. I'm having more emotional outbursts than laughters." I pointed out and heard him sigh.

"Bird, look at me." He lifted my head by placing his fingers under my chin.

He continued, "Whatever this is, I guarantee you that I will stick with you till it will completely disappear. We're in this shit together, okay bird?" He rubbed my shoulder and I nodded many times.

I smiled and wrapped my arms around his neck, hugging him really tight as more and more tears left my red eyes.
"Thank you, so much." I sobbed and Jack kissed my hair, breaking the hug.

"Anytime, bird." He looked me in the eyes and sighed softly before kissing my forehead.

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