i dont know what im doing anymore

Chapter One

Be Karkat.
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I wake up to the sound of my alarm clock. BEEP BEEP BEEP BEEP. I slam my hand on the stupid fucking thing. Inevitably it breaks, again...

I move to get out of my bed but the big warm lump in my bed decides against it.

"Stupid fucking cat." I complain while kicking it off the bed. Groggily making my way to the bathroom I hear my brother, Kankri, humming making breakfast. Changing quickly and running a brush through my messy tangled hair, I refuse to look up in the dirty broken mirror on top my sink. I despise what lurks there.

"Morning Karkat." Kankri says with thankfulness. I grumble a hello back.

"Its pretty cold outside. Might want to take a jacket. But of course I could always drive you to school instead of walking. I shouldn't even let you walk ......" I tune out his rambling as I grab a piece of toast and put my headphones around my ear blaring music. I grab my cancer hoodie and make my way out that damned house. I was greeted with a blast of cold winter air as I stepped outside.

"Shit its so cold out here." I say shivering in place but I tread along anyway. If there's one thing I hate more than life, its definitely the cold.

School is about thirty minutes away from my house. I walk there looking down at my feet occasionally in step with my music and totally oblivious to the world around me.

When I reach Huss High School my body is completely frozen. I can barely feel when other kids bump into me pushing me out of their way. Its not like I notice anyway.

I hurriedly get to my locker before anyone can notice I'm here and turn the lock so quick and open my locker I forgot what my combination even was. I grab my books for the day and almost close the locker when I remember I forgot something. I grab it quickly and shove it in my pants pocket. Hopefully no one saw.