i dont know what im doing anymore

Chapter Sixteen

Be Dave
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I woke up with a major headache. I rub the back of my head and find a bump. What the hell, how did I get this bump? Last thing I remember is .... OH SHIT WHAT DID I DO?!?! Oh god, he's gonna hate me. Shit, I fucked up this time. I fucked up real bad.... W-where am I?

I realized I was sitting in a dark, cold room. I don't remember walking in here. Hell, I don't even know what happened to Karkat.

"Hey there lil' bro." My brothers voice cut off my thoughts. I was dead. "You came home early, and you brought a friend."

"Uh. Hey bro, yeah I did. D-do you know what happened to him?" I was circling around the room trying to find him but it was too dark.

"Oh yeah. I took him home." Nope. Nope. Nope. I am so dead. Time to say my prayers.

"You know, lil' bro, I thought I raised you better." I heard him jump down from something and now know where he is. I follow the sound of his breathing and his footsteps. He stopped almost five feet away from me. My heartbeat raised and i was sweating so much it was getting in my eyes.

"H-hey now, let's just stay calm...." I immediately felt a hand on my shoulder and was swept out from under my feet.

"YOU'VE RAPED THAT POOR BOY AND ALL YOU CAN SAY IS STAY CALM!? YOUR LUCKY HIS BROTHER DIDN'T PRESS CHARGES OR CALL THE POLICE ON YOU!" I felt his shout shake the room... I've never seen him this angry before. I couldn't control my emotions when I realized I was on the floor curled up in a ball sobbing.

"Look, I know what I did was wrong!" I yelled back with tears rolling down my face. I reached up to my glasses threw them off and rubbed my eyes to stop the crying. The lights turned on and my brother was standing in front of me. I looked up at him still crying. "I'm so sorry, I'll never forgive myself."

"Don't tell me you're sorry. Tell him." He gave me a hand to help me up but I didn't take it. "I've made dinner when you want it." Once he left the room I cried uncontrollably. I was so ashamed of myself... No, I wasn't ashamed of myself, I hated myself. I couldn't believe I'd do such a thing. I ran out of the room still crying and into my room. I started up my computer and opened Pesterchum.

turntechGodhead [TG] began pestering carcinoGenesict [CG] 

TG: karkat ..... 

TG: i am so sorry.....

TG: i know you wont talk to me ever again and i deserve it but i am so sorry....

TG: i want to make it up to you....

TG: i dont know how though...

CG: LISTEN HERE YOU SICK FUCK! NEVER FUCKING TALK TO ME AGAIN! I FUCKING HATE YOU! STAY OUT OF MY LIFE!

carcinoGenesist [CG] ceased pestering turntechGodhead [TG]

I closed my computer and stared out of my window for the rest of the night.